r/demisexuality

I feel so embarrassed writing this but figured I’d put it somewhere where someone else could possibly relate lol

So I’m in my 20’s, and I see that so many of my friends are out there living their lives dating and hooking up with people. Not that I want to be sleeping around, but I definitely have many wants and desires. The problem is that I’m demi.

I haven’t been in a relationship in a really long time and even then it was incredibly unfulfilling. I haven’t even liked/crushed on anyone in god knows how long. A partner would be really nice and definitely something I’m open to, but I’ve really been focusing on me, my education and career, and I don’t really want to force a connection with anyone since it hasn’t been happening organically.

Now back to the problem, I want to have sex real bad. Unfortunately, I physically cannot do anything with anyone without being repulsed unless I really like/love them, but as I mentioned before that just hasn’t been happening. I also definitely don’t want to peruse a relationship with anyone just for the purpose of having sex because that just seems like a recipe for disaster.

I feel like my mind and body are constantly at war with each other and I just wish I could have my wants fulfilled like any other person my age instead of having to deal with all this crap.

My (35F) husband (36M) discovered he was demisexual through work in couples therapy this year.

Our relationship was in a terrible place before therapy (which we began in summer 2025), and we have worked extremely hard to rebuild trust, communication, fun, and understanding. We now have a solid foundation back in our marriage, but the physical connection is still lacking. We have not had sexual interaction since March of 2025. We have openly communicated about our needs, and he understands that physical connection is a need of mine, but that he is not there yet. I completely understand and never want to pressure him, but I’m also feeling unwanted and burnt out from being “the pursuer”. He was recently on a solo trip out of town and came home early to be with me, so I felt desired in that instance.

Have you all been in this situation with your partners? Did your feelings of desire come back after a rocky period in a relationship? Was there anything your partner did to help you feel supported?

I love him so much and want to do the right things to continue to repair our connection, but I’m not sure what those things are.

I would like to hear experiences from confidently self-identifying people (hopefully). Demisexual demiromantics, demisexual aromantics, demisexual alloromantics, what was your situation with teen crushes?

Edit: I think I need to word it better... Not who you had a crush on, but what was it like, what did you feel, could you differentiate a romantic crush from the one that turned a sexual one?

I'm trying to figure out what am I romantically, and reading demiromantic subreddit didn't help, I'm confused and I don't understand if I relate or not, because maybe the two come together so often for so many people... so I thought I'd try to look at it form a demisexual perspective, and ask for your experiences in hopes that some clicks as "ohhh that's me"

I’ve identified as demi for my entire adult life (28FTM) and I question whether I might also be demiromantic or if it’s just that I’m autistic and have low social needs/connections. I dream of having a partner to love and adore, but I prefer being by myself most of the time and struggle to make connections with people full stop, so I have never really dated or had sex with anyone.

I have a high libido though and sexuality is very interesting to me, I love being in kink spaces and going to events, I record videos and post them online and like feeling desired, I like talking to people about what their sexual interests are, love the intimacy and vulnerability of it; and I masturbate a lot to erotica, fanfiction and amateur porn.

Recently I’ve been feeling very lonely and touch starved, much as I love my best friend we aren’t the physically affectionate type and she has her own partner, and I’ve been trying to make more of an effort to reach and out and meet people and make connections, if I stay in my comfort zone my entire life I’m just going to rot here. I have so far been too shy to meet anyone irl and also do hate trying to sell myself on dating apps but I did start to talk to someone online and lo and behold have developed a crush on him. It’s simultaneously wonderful, I love the giddy feeling I get messaging him and how we can go back and forth all night, but also incredibly hurtful as we progressed to getting off together, sharing personal videos and talking each other through it.

I always feel so hurt and upset and disgusted with myself afterwards, it’s like the very worst sub drop I’ll be crying, feeling like I want to die, feeling so disconnected from everything and everyone, I end up going to sleep and then feeling like shit all the next day. But then he’ll message me again and I’m swept away in it all let it happen again and again.

I don’t feel like I can tell him this, for him it is just a friendship and he’s had FWBs and relationships before, he started commenting on my videos which is how we met so it’s been sexual from the start. We’re so compatible in most ways and understand each other so well, and regardless of that I just think he’s wonderful, and I don’t necessarily want to stop as I love how he sends me things other people aren’t getting to see, but I can’t ignore that this is hurting me pretty badly.

I don’t really know what to do and I don’t know that I really want advice as I know the healthy thing would be to talk to him and stop doing this, but I guess I just wanted to see if this resonated with anyone or if anyone has had a similar experience?

Sad chud rant incoming. 💔

+ Talking about sexual frustration. You’ve been warned.

I really, really wish it was easier to meet other demisexuals IRL. I hate when people minimize my experience and specific need in a relationship as “unrealistic” or “Disney”.

Im Straight, Cis, monogamous and heavily Demi. I very, very rarely find anybody attractive in a personality sense, even rarer in a physical sense. The only sense of romanticism/eroticism in my life is projected onto a very specific fictional character. 😣

I crave romance. I crave a connection. I crave exclusivity and choosing one another, not needing one another but wanting to be together. I crave sex with the connection. I am hyper specific about anything pornographic and spend more time searching than enjoying; which is like… once a month? I feel like I could spend my time better? My body just does NOT feel good or interested? I hate feeling tethered to feeling like I need another person to experience a very human emotion/desire/drive.

ALL of friends are allo, various identities and such. I hear about their casual excursions and live vicariously through them at times, maybe even taking notes. When we all go out, it’s just effortless to them. I don’t wanna bar pickup where some stranger is staring at my curves. I wanna talk to the dork that’ll tell me all about his passion for various bugs and rocks or some shit.

It’s not even about finding people to possibly date, I’ve been told that I am attractive and I have experienced being hit on countless times. It makes me seem like I think I’m “too good for” certain people, shallow but I just genuinely feel nothing when approached in a typical sense. Conventionally attractive people do nothing for me, although I can acknowledge aesthetic.

After having dated an allosexual person for five years of my life, I just don’t know if I see myself wanting to date another one. Too many differences, not on the same page about many things. I do understand that it CAN work, I just wish I met someone with the same amount of intensity. I know it would drastically cut down my dating pool but damn, a woman can dream.

Right now, my only outlet is writing fan fiction. It helps a little, but it’s frustrating because I always feel the need to make my smut works have some familiarity/relational closeness to really feel they’re good. Can’t even escape in “fantasy” I suppose. 😭

Sorry. I needed to whine a bit. I’m pretty frustrated with my functionality and feel incredibly lonely or pathetic at times.

I was playing an MMORPG with a bunch of people. The Guild Leader was a girl who had a bubbly personality and always fun to hang with in game, on discord, and we eventually started moving in that direction of long distance relationship because she was about 900 miles away. I felt comfortable enough with her to develop those attractive feels. I wanted to be closer -- we shared pictures/videos and were thoroughly in that honey-moon phase.

Then things began to change over 90 days. She was clearly having a bad day, and was abrasive/rude to one of our guild mates which was a huge turn off for me, although I tried to keep it in perspective that stress can make people say things they didn't mean. THEN she spent 90% of our guild's gold for a cosmetic mount for herself, even though the other 30 of us were chipping in to get some actually useful items that would help us clear content//open up more loot. I tried to rationalize that she viewed it as a loan -- that she intended to pay it back?

She did not have that intention. It was a birthday gift for her running the guild, even though most of the officer-core leadership did the heavy lifting.

I lost any amount of sexual attraction for her. I wanted to be as far away as possible because I didn't want that energy infecting my core. Of course this spiraled because she wasn't getting what she needed to be satisfied (no sexy times), and began to lash out. She started openly flirting with other guild members in chat, and started treating me like shit. I found out later that she was married the whole time.

I have come to understand that I when I feel safe/confident that a partner has good energy/intentions, I want to merge with them -- I can't get enough of them. But if they show signs of bad characteristics, I want to distance myself. This creates problems because I imagine from the partner's point of view, it is viewed love-bombing? I feel like we built a friendship for almost a year, then dated happily for 3 months, and spiraled to a breakup over another 3 months.

Of course this person in particular was a terrible choice on my part, but I noticed the same phenomenon in other relationships

I have met more Demi people in SCA, Larp or renn faire then ever have in the wild. I was curious if people aso noticed this to. SCA is welcome.sca.org for those who dont know

Sorry to be negative but I have to ask. Is it normal to feel anger/annoyance/shame when first coming to the realization that you’re Demi? I feel irrationally irritated and mad

Hello, demisexual community.

My bf (21) is demisexual and we’ve been dating for 3 years now (I am also 21). It’s been great and still is great. But, recently, I’ve connected him and my close online friend (who is also a high functioning autistic, like him), and they get along great.

My bf doesn’t have friends unfortunately. He could really use them but he’s anti social and is comfortable with his lack of community. But he enjoys the company of my online friend, so I’m seeing friendship potential past “friend of my gf.” Anyway, point is I’ve never had to set friendship boundaries before.

What are some boundaries I should set? Should I be worried? What are your guys experiences with being in a long term relationship and having friendships?

All advice is welcome. Thanks.

So, as my title states it’s a bit confusing I suppose? I’ll elaborate as it’s been bothersome and I cannot for the likes of myself wait any longer to see if I’m the only one who’s in the wrong or if it’s just me?

I’m a 22yr demisexual, pan sexual lady who’s a kemonimini. I’ve mostly lived with my father and brother, and I never had a mother to guide me into femininity; but I am still finding my footing.

Aside from that, I’ve had a 8 year long distance relationship, and during those first 6 years I had been hyper sexual and had engaged with my trans boyfriend (he’s 24, I turn 23 this coming nov).

Unfortunately, an event had happened that resulted me and my family to move out of the city for better safety and I’ve put off any sexual activities with my boyfriend.

Thing is? I’ve found myself finally in a sexuality back in 2024. I watched Bojack Horseman and lo and behold, Todd was the most relatable character that spoke out clearly to me in a sexuality aspect. He just..made so much sense.

I’ve brought it to my boyfriend’s attention and he seemed to congratulate me in it, but I never fully asked him if he truly knows what the sexuality spectrum is. Hence me finding out I’m demisexual, not asexual.

But, on the contrary, I’ve noticed something that would make me question my sexuality. I once brought up to him that I still have my toys, but it only lead him to ask me why. Why do I still have them if I’m..a demisexual? I had no answer and it lead to confusion in myself, and lead him to believe that I lied to him.

Another instance was where I told about kinktober around the corner recently and that Wattpad users may migrate from Wattpad, to Archive Of Our Own. The only thing that made him say was he felt insecure by the fact I read sexual things, but I didn’t correspond to his “urges” in our RP conversations.

As you can tell, it made me uncertain and unsure of myself the more I try to communicate and explain my sexuality. He tells me I need to guide him, when I just want fluff and talk about our recent interests, what he’d been doing, and trying to engage with him more in physical touch over our RP.

Another thing that made me feel uncertain was the Pet Play he suggested. I’m lowkey down with it, but not the degradation towards him. I understand it, but I never want it to become sexual as it’s something he’s been communicating with even if it’s just to talk about.

Sorry for my weird ass rant- I’m mostly confused, and upset with myself by the fact I cannot engage with him properly and feeling as if I need to be openly sexual to satisfy him.

I am someone who loves sex but I could never do a casual hookup to save my own life. I go to a lot of queer events where there is a lot of sexual energy in the air. I see my friends meet someone at the bar and go from exchanging names to hooking up in the bathroom in a matter of minutes. While I'm excited for them, I feel this tremendous amount of envy like I wished I could easily do something like that. The opportunity is certainly there for me, but the moment I would get approached by someone introducing themselves to me with a smile and touching my arm, I start to freeze up.

Things that pop up in my head are: "I won't be able to get hard." "They're gonna think I'm not interested in them at all." "He's hot, but I barely know them, so making out will just feel performative."

They can quickly sense the emotional wall I put up, and they walk away. Similarly if I try to initiate by complementing someone on their outfits or engaging in conversation, they may immediately think I'm hitting on them. Even if I find the person attractive, it takes a couple of interactions before my body is even able to signal that I want to hookup. I also don't discriminate who I choose to complement or engage in conversation. I prioritize connection first before sex even comes in mind, and this sometimes even leads me into hookups with people who aren't my type.

It can oftentimes feel lonely being the one guy left out while others are talking about all their fun sexcapades from going out. I'm still learning to find acceptance being demisexual, but it's hard.

My ex broke up with me in 2016 because she's asexual and sex repulsed whereas I'm demisexual, so I only enjoy sex when it's with someone that I truly love.

I've been clinging to this ever since

I’m not going to say I want it to be some big romance or serious relationship, it’s just finally getting to me. The last few people I’ve been with have very much been the same way about me, very big on non-committal non-exclusive relationships to the point of literally only hitting me up to inevitably ask if we can link again.

She started off knowing me by being open about exploring and not being exclusive. I understood. She did say that could very easily change the more time we spend together and the more intimate we are. I was a bit hopeful but not delusional. We spend pretty large amount of time together, due to our libidos we also kinda can’t keep our hands off each other. She likes it to be very romantic as well which is jarring. Somehow she still finds a lot of time between work and seeing me to date other people and hook up with strangers. We have great chemistry and are pretty good together, I’m kinda shocked she doesn’t seem to like me more than just being the person she dates and sleeps with a few times a week.

I think for me even if it’s not that serious, I wish it would be more special. As special as it is for me that it is for them. At the very least the person I’m with right now treats me pretty great as a basic human level, she simply doesn’t care for me in any significant way and that’s kind of sad for me. I can’t not have sex unfortunately, be it due to trauma or neurodivergence I can fight it but eventually I need a sexual outlet so I have to spend a good amount of time building up chemistry and connecting with someone.

It’s just that back to back to back to back…etc nobody has ever been interested in dating me outside of something fun and not at all serious or deeply romantic. I can even settle for a casual romance with some level of comfort and safety! Maybe it’s the recovering serial monogamist in me, but I’ve been single for three years I’m certainly miss the safety of having someone even if it wasn’t a forever partner. Idk what bothers me more, that nobody seems to want to date me or that everyone is so obsessed with no strings attached non-committal sex

Has anyone found like another demisexual person that they are in a relationship? We’re friends with here and it actually worked out for you like I see a lot of people on some of these post looking for others or putting out like post but I’ve never actually see people come back and say this worked out and we’re friends with this worked out and we’re dating and I just I’m wondering if maybe love is just for those people that I see that are just kind of jumping into the sack together at the first sort of sign that they want to do that in the beginning of the relationship I guess that I’m just wondering if I should give up at this point

I fell in love with a married man who became incredibly close to me, and I honestly don't know what to do with these feelings

I've never really talked about this anywhere before. Almost nobody in my real life knows because I'm a pretty private person and I tend to keep a LOT inside, but lately I've been thinking maybe I just need to say it somewhere.

Sorry this got kinda long 😭 I just wanted to explain it properly so you can understand the whole story and how it actually feels from my side :)

So... here I am.

There's this man. I'll call him Moon. He's married, and yeah, I've fallen in love with him. Not just "I have a crush on him." I wish it was that simple lol. I genuinely love him, and sometimes I look at this whole situation and think... how the hell did I even get here?

We're actually pretty different. I'm a very visual person — fashion, aesthetics, art, culture, taking care of myself, noticing tiny details about people. I'm single, I know I'm attractive, and realistically I could probably meet someone else pretty easily. Someone who's actually available. Someone much closer to my usual type.

And yet...

Moon.

WHY YOUUUU? 😭

Sometimes I literally look at him and think, you're just a regular guy. How did YOU manage to get this deep into my head? I don't mean that arrogantly at all. I don't think I'm better than him. That's actually why I find it so funny. If you'd asked me a few years ago to describe the person I'd fall this hard for, I'm honestly not sure I would've described someone like him.

I can see an insanely attractive guy and think, "wow, he's beautiful," and basically forget about him five minutes later. But Moon makes one stupid joke, gives me a certain look, or signs something completely ordinary to me and somehow THAT stays in my head.

Like... okay heart. Interesting choice.

This whole thing actually made me realize I'm probably demisexual. Real attraction for me rarely starts with someone's face or body. I need to know them, trust them, feel safe around them and have that feeling of "you actually understand me."

Then apparently one day my brain just goes:

"Oh shit."

"I'm in love."

Too late now I guess 😂

There's another really important part of this story: we're both Deaf/hard of hearing and we communicate in sign language.

I don't mean this in a "we're both disabled so obviously we understand each other" way, because that's not how it works at all. Deaf/HoH people have different levels of hearing, different personalities, communication styles, backgrounds and life experiences. There's also Deaf culture, community and sign language itself.

Two Deaf people meeting doesn't automatically create some magical ✨connection✨.

But when you actually find someone you connect with deeply through sign language, it can feel really special.

With Moon, sometimes one sign, one facial expression or literally one look is enough for me to understand what he means. And sometimes it feels like he understands me in exactly the same way.

We'll be surrounded by friends, everyone doing their own thing, and then the two of us start signing to each other. For a few seconds my attention just completely locks onto him. It's almost like everything around us becomes smaller.

Maybe for him that's just normal close-friend stuff.

For me... sometimes it doesn't feel that simple.

We're close. We joke a lot, talk a lot, sometimes hug, sometimes there's casual physical contact. There are these tiny moments that objectively might mean absolutely nothing, but unfortunately they mean something to me.

And sometimes I genuinely have to remind myself:

Dude. One hug is not a love confession. Calm down 😭

Because when you're in love, your brain can build an entire story out of one look.

The strongest part for me is probably when we travel with our group of friends. We'll spend several days together — mornings, car rides, food, walking around, evenings, random conversations, stupid jokes, signing about absolutely nothing.

Nothing dramatic. We're just around each other.

And after a few days his presence starts feeling completely normal to me.

Then the trip ends.

Everyone goes home.

And that's when it hits me.

The first few days afterwards can honestly hurt. I miss him way more than I want to admit. Sometimes I even feel this weird pressure in my chest, and suddenly I want to tell him EVERYTHING.

Not even important things.

Something stupid that happened during my day. A random thought. A joke. Something I saw. Something that reminded me of him. Sometimes I don't even need a conversation — I just miss having him around.

Then time passes. I get back into my normal life. I work, travel, see friends, take care of myself, meet people, and eventually I'm okay again.

I'm like:

"Alright. We're normal now."

Then we travel together again.

My heart:

"HEYYY :) remember me?"

Oh for fuck's sake 😭

And here we go again.

That's why I've sometimes wondered if this is becoming a little emotionally addictive. I don't know if "dependency" is the right word, probably not. I have my own life. I'm not sitting around waiting for him to text me. I'm perfectly capable of being happy without him.

But still... my mind keeps coming back to him.

And that's the part that sometimes annoys me because I KNOW I have options.

There are so many beautiful and interesting people out there. I can see someone extremely attractive and think "damn."

Emotionally?

Nothing.

Then this regular man makes me laugh and my heart goes:

YES. HIM.

WHY 😭

I think that's probably the most demisexual thing about this whole situation.

Beauty catches my eye. Connection takes my heart.

Unfortunately my heart apparently doesn't check relationship status first.

Because yes, he's married.

And that's where everything gets complicated.

I'd be lying if I said I never wonder whether he feels something too. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I stopped initiating so much.

If I don't approach him first, will he come to me?

If I don't start talking, will he?

If we're with other people, will his eyes still find mine?

If I don't initiate a hug or casual physical contact, will he?

Part of me really wants answers.

But another part of me knows how dangerous that thinking can become. When you're in love, you can analyze EVERYTHING — a look, a joke, a hug, the way someone sits next to you — and suddenly your brain has built an entire romantic theory while the other person is simply thinking:

"That's my close friend."

And there's another layer that makes this whole situation even more ridiculous:

I actually get along really well with his wife.

Like... genuinely well.

I respect her. I'm comfortable around her. We communicate really well, and I don't have any resentment toward her at all. She's not some villain in my head and I don't secretly wish she would disappear.

Which sometimes makes me laugh at my own heart even more.

Amazing job.

You fell in love with a married man AND you genuinely like his wife as a person.

Perfect situation 😭

But honestly, that also makes my boundaries even clearer.

I don't want to destroy their marriage. I don't want to compete with her. I don't want to manipulate him, make him jealous or somehow "win" him.

She hasn't done anything wrong, and I would never want my feelings to become something that hurts her.

That's important to me.

If what Moon and I have is simply a very deep friendship, then I want to respect it for what it is, even if my heart sometimes wants more.

I think that's actually where most of the pain comes from.

Realizing I can love someone deeply and still understand that loving him doesn't give me any right to possess him.

He has his world.

I have mine.

And somehow those two worlds met.

Sometimes it even feels like we have our own tiny language inside sign language — certain looks, jokes, facial expressions, little ways of understanding each other that are hard to explain to anyone else.

Maybe those moments mean more to me than they do to him.

Maybe he loves me deeply too, but only as a friend.

And I know I have to accept that as a real possibility.

I don't know how this story ends.

Maybe these feelings will calm down eventually.

Maybe we'll stay close friends for years.

Maybe I'll meet someone else one day and suddenly understand why this happened.

Or maybe at some point I'll need some distance because loving him starts hurting more than it feels beautiful.

I genuinely don't know.

But I'm trying to stop being ashamed of the feeling itself.

I didn't choose it.

Trust me, if I could order a crush online, I would've selected:

single + emotionally available + actually into me 😭

I can choose who I date. I can choose who I text. I can choose whether I cross a boundary. I can choose what I actually DO with these feelings.

I just can't always choose who I fall in love with.

So yeah... that's why I'm here.

Has anyone here ever fallen deeply in love with a close friend who was married, straight, or otherwise unavailable, while genuinely NOT wanting to ruin their relationship?

Did you stay friends? Did you ever tell them? Did the feelings eventually calm down? Did you have to distance yourself?

And the question I keep coming back to the most:
How do you know when something is just an unusually deep friendship... and when there are actually mutual feelings underneath it?

Because apparently my heart looked at all the available people in the world and went "Nah. Moon." 😭

(I don't know, if this fully belongs here. Could also belong to polyamory or relationshipanarchy or other ENM subs)

So, I was thinking about the "looking for"-options on dating apps, e.g. "serious" (is this the correct term in English? Or "committed relationship"), "casual", but especially the combined option "[serious], but open for something casual".

And randomly it dawned on me, that most people probably interpret this as "looking for a committed relationship, but am fine with hook-ups in the meantime".

For me, the casual part reads more like "I'm fine with not completely going onboard the relationship escalator (=committed/serious relationship, goal: "forever"), but definitely want a deep emotional and romantic connection beyond friendship [for some time]" (so, e.g. no queer-platonic relationship).

Am I the only one who has this image in their mind? Is this even possible or does it only make sense in my own head? And, most importantly: Is there another term for this style of relationship?

Edit: also, it doesn't need to include sex or sexual attraction.

My partner has gotten busier and more focused on their career lately. Like hella locked in.

They've even joked about wanting to cut off their genitals just so they could work in peace because it was annoying for them to feel physical arousal sometimes when they don't actually have the desire and/or capacity to be intimate.

My partner and I are both demi and we’re usually pretty sexually active, so I think the sudden change has been getting to me more than I expected.

They're still affectionate with me and it's not like I'm being abandoned in the trenches or anything! I just find myself missing being able to stay wrapped up in each other instead of affection being a lovely little moment before one of us has to understandably move their attention elsewhere.

Honestly, it's embarrassing how sad this has been making me lately. I don't feel like I have the right to feel this way because it's not like my partner's doing anything wrong. I care about them and understand that they're more occupied, and I don't wanna seem selfish and entitled.

The last thing I want for them is to feel pressured or obligated into being intimate with me. Part of me thinks it's better not to bring up at all, because I really don't want them to feel that way and I don't wanna accidentally make them responsible for my feelings. At the same time, keeping it entirely to myself feels lonely, because the sadness and longing is still there even when I understand all of that intellectually.

It's frustrating how centered my desire is on them. When I’m turned on, I don't just wanna get off. I want them specifically. I want to be close to them, touch them, be touched by them, and do that for a long while. The sexual desire and the desire for emotional closeness feel so tangled together for me that I can’t really separate the two.

Even watching porn doesn’t really help because doing so would just remind me of them, make me think about them more, and miss them even harder. Touching myself would take care of the annoying pop-ups from the flesh, but it sure as hell does nothing for the yearning.

Sometimes it even makes the yearning far worse because afterwards, I'm just sitting there thinking that this wasn't what I really wanted. My body feels better sure, but I still want them and I want this specifically with them.

I know this is probably just a season where they’re really invested in what they’re working towards. I’m genuinely proud of them for that too. I love seeing them care so much about their work, and I absolutely do not want them to shrink their ambitions just because I am currently experiencing Victorian levels of yearning in the background.

I just really miss them in this very specific, intimate, and embarrassingly pathetic way, and my brain has no idea where else to put that desire.

To make matters worse, we're going on a short trip soon for an event before they get even busier, and might book a hotel to stay overnight at. My overactive horny hopeful imagination has already taken this information and ran several miles with it. I am trying so hard to be normal about it.

Please pray for me.

I hate when ppl keep asking me about relationship, or people are talking about relationships and I'm not even joking when I say I never felt anything for someone like desire or sexual attraction, I don't feel like dating. And I'm not willing to put up with it just for the sake of it. Idk if I'm demi or just assexual, but that makes me feel bad. I don't want to explain myself I feel embarrassed and cringey