My ex broke up with me in 2016 because she's asexual and sex repulsed whereas I'm demisexual, so I only enjoy sex when it's with someone that I truly love.
I've been clinging to this ever since
I've never had any friendships and I was purely just friends with my coworkers at work because I didn't believe in changing that distinction.
I don't have any goals or aspirations, people who are important to me.
My last relationship ended in 2016.
I have a few different support workers who I have nothing in common with and it's just so draining.
Whenever I try to complain to one of them about the problem of the day, he explains it to me in a way that makes me feel like I'm the one being irrational and he makes me feel like even more of a complete idiot.
All of them know that I'm a perfume enthusiast but whenever I put one on they immediately assume it's one of two extremely popular fragrances, Paco Rabanne's 1 Million, which I don't have anymore or Dior Sauvage, which I very rarely wear
Also after I've finished watching a movie, they ask me how the series was even after I've just said that I was watching a horror movie, it's a mild complaint I know but it's still frustrating.
I don't have any long term plans or goals, I feel like I just exist painfully, taking up space and wasting everybody's time and posting these negative emotions on Reddit just feels like endlessly calling into the void
Bottoms of reddit, how did it feel when a top entered your ass for the first time and what position were you in?
How was your first time being penetrated by a man?
I'm celebrating my siblings partner's birthday in 3 days and I need a suggestion, what would you get for someone that doesn't wear fragrance? He's 30 and he's a landscaper
I don't really have any interests anymore, I don't really want to feel anything anymore, I don't really want to be here, I feel like I'm forced to continue this misery.
I told one of my support workers that I am bisexual the other day and he was very happy that I told him
I'm always too busy to feel sad, I've always got appointments and other shit to do but I'm always too busy to get a job and start going to work, I miss working.
I don't have any kind of goals or a general life direction, it just feels like I'm painfully existing without any kind of purpose
What are some of the best clean and soapy fragrances?
Most of the people I've met who aren't fragrance nerds love basic fragrances that sell well.
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There's a reason why blue fragrances like Dior Sauvage, Bleu De Chanel and Versace Dylan Blue sell incredibly well, people love to condemn those fragrances as boring or overrated but they smell good and are incredibly popular.
Most of the time I feel just pure emptiness, not happy or sad, I just feel complacent, I don't remember ever being happy
What are the 3 most popular fragrance DNA's to create dupes of?
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Mine are:
Creed Aventus
By Killian Angels Share
Dior Sauvage
I grew up with my mother telling me that I didn't deserve friends because I was a piece of shit, she also told me that she didn't want me, that she only had me to shut her sister up because she wanted me as a companion for my older sibling because "an only child is a lonely child"
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She also never approved of any of my childhood friends.
I reached out to a few of my high school friends and they didn't want to meet up.
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I never befriended any of my coworkers because I purely saw them all as work friends.
I have a few people who are on my support network that I have made people well aware that I am uncomfortable working with them and they don't acknowledge it.
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I don't really know where to go from there.