traumatic memory
I want to share this thing because I don’t have anyone else to share this with.
I am 23F. So my parents are abusive both physically and emtionally , I manly try to forget the painfull memories but there is one traumatic memory that keeps bothring me and I am trying everything to forget it but nothing is working. So what happened was that i was in grade 7 and it was during summer vacations me and my elder sister we were fighting mostly i was being a little bratty and it got a little loud so my father he got angry and started asking why i was bothring my sister. Me being a teenager started arguing and that made him angrier he got up held me by my arm and slapped me and then slapped me again and again. those slaps were so strong and powerful that i fell on the ground. He didn’t stop he started kicking me in my abdomen i was trying to protect myself and resistin but he just kept going and going. My mother, sister were standing right there and they did nothing. At one point i stopped resisting and moving. Then my mother got scared, she interven and stopped my dad. Still tp this day this paticular memory is fresh as if it was yesterday. The problem is that anything can just trigger it like i would be watching a movie or series and a sad scene would trigger it sometimes i am not even doing anything and it gets triggered and then comes the panic attacks with it I dont know what to do. All my friends and collegue think i have a happy family life and loving parents. but the reality only i know it
All i want is to forget this but i dont know how