What answer could actually make me feel better?
So today is my 31st birthday and I'm sitting here at 1 am thinking about my past. I cut off my parents a few months ago after having my own kid, because I realised I could never do that to my kid.
My main thought is that I want to ask my father why he hit me and threw me against a cupboard when I was 10. My grandparents and uncle (his in-laws) were leaving after visiting us and it was slightly drizzling, so my father told me to get an umbrella for my grandmother for the 10 meter (11 yard) walk to the car but my grandmother told me to leave it because she doesn't need one for such a short walk. I hesitated for a second, and my father came over to me and slapped me, then dragged me to my room and slapped me again so hard that I flew into the open cupboard and hit my head on the vertical slab of wood. Then he hit my 19/20 year old uncle for trying to stand up for me.
I really want to ask him why he did this, but what answer could I possibly want to hear?