Reconnection anxiety?
I cut off my mom and sister about two years ago. I couldn’t relate to them anymore, after they voted for trump a third time. Especially since I’m trans.
But after two years I guess I felt enough guilt and pressure to reconnect again.
Which kinda sucks because I’ve been fine on my own. I’m like not really a super social person to begin with. Never felt super close to my family. I probably have something wrong with my brain that makes it easy to cut people off.
But I was worrying about my mom’s mental health. And I was a bit hasty in deciding I guess that I could reach out again.
My mom is telling me about all the things I’m going to miss like my sister’s wedding/other obligations/funerals/etc if I keep sorta phasing in and out of people’s lives like I tend to do. She’s also now chalking up her mistake of voting for trump to be evidence of revelations from the bible lmao. Genuinely can’t tell if she’s actually sorry about what she’s voted for, or understands why I cut her off.
Im having some pretty intense anxiety that I made the wrong decision. I think being told about all these obligations I’ll regret missing is making me feel like I shouldnt have reached out to begin with. Cus honestly it I randomly pop up in the family after a couple years, going to obligations and stuff that I honestly dont have much emotions towards is just kind of intimidating
Idrk what Im asking for here. I guess just advice in general because I’m a messy bitch and I cant navigate family stuff very well.