Anyone else have that moment where you just suddenly understand the concept of death?
Like it just suddenly clicks one day and now you have panic attacks about it. I thought I understood it before but now it feels so much more real (and worse) to think about. Sometimes the concept just stares at you and you can think of nothing else. Nothing can drown it out (I’ve tried music, videos, doomscrolling, games, ect.). I need help. Idk what to do. One minute I’m ready to die (ie: why don’t i just exhale and not inhale, not quite suicide) then the next I’m having an existential crisis about what death is. The crisis just clicked when I hit 19 and I want everything to just stop. I want to never have existed in the first place so I would never have known any of this. I wish the concept never truly clicked. I don’t want to exist but I don’t want to die. The only person I can go to about this is my mom who is terminal with a bunch of things so it would probably traumatize her too.