u/Certified__Delulu

Hi yall hopefully i dont offend anyone here, look im not financially able to have asthma

I had chronic phlegm for a while nowadays and had it checked up by our family doctor(a pulmonologist) now he had assumed that i may have asthma due to his own diagnosis, no spirometry no pft's just his trusty stethoscope

After his bombarded query he had medicated me with a lot, inhalers, medications etc. At first i was not skeptical but thenn.

A day later i palpitated like crazy, my chest tightened, and my mind easily get whoozy. Like i just squated over to reach something and i felt it, i cant contact my dr. That day

Now a week later i feel a bit fine, still continuing the medications prescribed. But still skeptical with his skills, like WHY DID HE MADE MY CONDITION WORSE

Now im scared that he might actually diagnose me with asthma due to my chest tightening(THAT WAS DUE TO HIS PRESCRIBED MEDICATIONS)

GOSH DAMN SO IDK WHAT TO DO WITH LIFE AND ALWAYS HAVE ME CONCLUDING NA MAGA SUI NALANG BUT NEVER COMMITS(GOD IS KEEPING ME HERE AND I FEEL THAT)

Magulo to so bear reading this shit

haii gais i cope shit differently(idk tbh) so bear with me and be frankk

So i recently turned 20 hehe and fukking hate what ive gotten myself into

Ive just realized smthing

Nuong 2021 an old friend catched up kasi nakausap niya parents ko and was worried since im not changing a part of me na nde ko talaga mabago at mawala sa sarili ko that is katamarannn yes opo

Long story short sinabi ko sakanya aking hininakit sa sarili and friggin sent the message sa magulang ko

AND GUESS WHAT? WALA SILA GINAWA FOR IT

Nuon pa man i was fukking struggling and now i still am and yet wala sila nagawa for it, narealize ko lang since fathers day now and asked myself, ano ba talaga ginawa ng dad ko besides financial and shelter shits

Today i now struggle with relationships like bru who do i vent to, knowing my parents wouldnt(kasi many usapan had been arguments but were chill) TAPOS MY KATAMARANN, IVE BEEN EYEING ON A CERTAIN GOAL YET WALA PA AKO SA FIRST STEPSS, I FEEL LIKE IVE WASTED NA 5YEARS OF MY LIFE KASI NDE KO SILA MAGAWA DUE TO KATAMARAN, AT FEEL LIKE IVE WORSEN MENTALLY

Do ask me some more questions to clarify the situation, tamo ngayon ung mental state ko now kagulo na yata auhh

Note:wala me money for professional care :,)