u/Chadier

The fundamental problem is that you cannot will what you will and marriage is not an option. As of right now, what I am doing is resisting the temptation and just going through it, but it is causing me anguish. Willpower is a limited resource, I want to end the desire itself but this is out of my hands, medications have side effects and are hard to acquire. While I recognize intellectually the value of asceticism, concluded it is the only way I must live my life, but my biology resists this. In the very moment where I am alone and the desire wont go away despite being busy, how can this desire be processed (as a Christian) instead of just enduring it until my willpower cracks?.