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A Different Kind of Porn

I used to be addicted to porn. What saved me was the natural drop in testosterone due to age. I'm 66 now. It just doesn't interest me. I used to masturbate every day. Now it's seldom.

But now there is a different kind of porn that I have lately been hooked on. It's AI porn - specifically Grok. Grok AI has modes that will engage you in sexual conversations like just like sexting. I usually would not masturbate but I would get aroused. This was like success for me because I had trouble getting it up without pills. But it really is sinful because in your mind "she" is a real person.

This is affecting women as well as men. I have blocked the websites. If this temps you, stay away from Grok. The other more familiar AIs have stricter limitations on what where they will go.

u/Livid-Candidate-7601 — 1 day ago

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Ruined my health but fighting back. 1 Year 8 Months Semen Retention Journey. Will I ever recover permanently?

am 21 years old and I am practicing semen retention. When I started this practice, I was 20 years old. It has been 1 year and 8 months since I started. Before this, my condition was so bad that my vision became blurry, my hair became completely frizzy and fell out, and my whole body's skin started looking like an old man's. My food wouldn't digest, undigested food was visible in my stool, and my urine color was yellow. I couldn't sleep, and even if I did, there was no peace in my sleep. I felt sleepy all day long and couldn't focus even for a single minute. I failed all my exams. I couldn't even stand properly and started looking very ugly. My eyes looked dirty too. I developed tinnitus, my hands and feet started trembling, and my soles started hurting while walking. My full body bones started making cracking sounds, making me feel like an old car's parts making noise while moving. I had severe back pain and couldn't sit straight even for a minute. I experienced dizziness, sudden darkness before my eyes, panic, and lived in constant fear. My vital energy used to leak on its own throughout the day. Nightfall was a daily story. I was becoming uglier day by day. Even though I was trying to follow semen retention, due to these nightfalls and semen leakage, instead of getting benefits, I kept getting weaker.

I cannot describe how terrible my condition became, I felt completely ruined. Please stay away from this thing. Every day I used to get scary dreams and wet dreams, and the moment I woke up, there was an atmosphere of fear. I felt like dying. Every single moment felt like hell. While sleeping, overthinking kept happening, and it didn't even feel like I slept. If I slept in the day, nightfall happened; if I slept at night, nightfall happened. My condition became so bad that I couldn't even tell anyone. I used to look very handsome, my eyes and overall genetics were excellent. But now, my condition is worse than a dog's. My life has become like a corpse. Every single second I felt like I should just die now. I felt too exhausted and dead inside even to get water for myself.

THE JOURNEY START

When I started for the first time, nightfalls used to happen multiple times a day. But I didn't give up. The gap between nightfalls slowly started increasing. It went from multiple times a day to once a day, then from 1 day it became 2 days, then 2 to 3 days, and 3 to 4 days. Doing this, it reached 15 days, and then 1 month. When it happened for 1 month for the first time, there was a pinkish glow on my face and my hair was regrowing. Till then, I hadn't experienced those terrible symptoms that I wrote above. Then after 1 month, according to the timeline, nightfall happened and all my benefits vanished. Then 2 months passed, benefits appeared and then vanished. The benefits were good, but after nightfall, my condition used to become even worse. Then when I properly completed 3 months, my benefits were amazing. My face was shining and glowing, my eyes were shining, and people were giving me attention. But brain fog was still there, there was no control over the mind, and no peace in sleep. Then after 3 months, I got nightfalls, but 3 times continuously, because of which my condition became exactly like the symptoms I mentioned above—bone cracking sound, tinnitus, etc. At that time, I felt like dying because I had been working hard for a long time but instead of results, I got the exact opposite. I noticed that this time when nightfall happened, I felt on my face as if someone had suddenly pulled away all my energy. I was very restless.

I gathered courage and started the fight again. But this time, even after 3 months passed, I didn't get any benefits. I felt that I would remain ugly and sick like this for the rest of my life and that I should just die now. I cannot share every single thing here about what I went through. Still, I didn't lose hope. Around 6 months, I noticed that I started getting peace while sleeping and my back pain was 100% gone. The burning sensation in my eyes stopped, and the pain in the soles of my feet while walking completely cured. My focus has increased by 30% because now I am able to study. However, the blurry vision is still there and hasn't fixed yet, just the burning is less. Now when I get nightfalls, the semen that leaks comes out a bit thinner than before. I started getting control over my dreams. My depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts ended. My hands and feet, which had cracked skin, got cured. I can now sit with a straight back, I feel slightly less weakness, and my heart rate, which had become fast, has become somewhat normal. But earlier, if I ate too much or ate wrong things, I used to get nightfall and restlessness. But now, even if I slept immediately after eating, no matter how many times I slept in the day, there was no issue.

But last night, I ate onions because of which I got wet dreams. When I woke up in the morning, luckily there was no nightfall. But I slept during the day today as well, due to which I had a wet dream and now I had a nightfall. Now my heart rate feels slightly fast. My depression, anxiety, and low focus feel like they are coming back, and I have become almost bald.

Will anyone please tell me whether I will ever recover permanently or not? Is there anyone whose condition was like mine and they recovered? Please tell me. And if anyone whose condition is worse than mine wants to ask questions, they can ask. But please, long-term retainers, please message me. I need your help, please brothers.

u/Jazzlike_List8301 — 1 day ago

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From Hinduism to Jesus Christ | My Personal Testimony

Hey everyone! I thought I would share our testimony of how Jesus Christ saved us.

First of all, all glory to God alone. This should be all about Him and not about us.

It’s a long story actually. Buckle up your seat belts.

I am deeply grateful to God for all that He has done for us. I can never thank Him enough.

I am a 30 year old guy from South India. We were raised in a Hindu family, but Jesus Christ graciously saved my grandfather, grandmother, mother, and me years ago. My dad is not saved yet.

We hail from Kerala and then got settled in Tamil Nadu, India. We used to worship some so called gods of Hinduism. We used to take trips to temples. We also wasted lots of money on poojas and stuff, but of no use. We did not have peace.

When I was a little kid, I remember two guys coming and standing before the gate of our house, and my grandfather was there at the veranda. They asked in a loud voice if they could come inside and talk about Jesus Christ. My grandfather got irritated and asked them to go away. I still remember being pissed off at them even at such a young age. We thought they were trying to brainwash us.

My aunt (my mother’s younger sister) had a brain tumour which haunted us for years. She used to suddenly get epilepsy, and then she would be taken to the hospital. We also got her brain tumour operated on, but still, after a few years, growth started to appear again. She was a woman who gave so much importance to God (unfortunately to idols) by spending time in prayer to them. She was an amazing woman though, but unfortunately she didn’t know her Creator. Even we didn’t know Him at that point in time.

There was a neighbour aunty who used to share about Jesus Christ with us, but we refused. That aunty would say that Jesus Christ called my aunt His daughter and asked my aunt to come to Him. She also asked us to turn to Jesus Christ and said that He would solve the problems we were going through, but we refused. We thought that the neighbour was trying to convert us. It must have been the pride in our hearts that was blinding us.

So, our journey to Christ actually began in 2009, during one of the most difficult seasons of our lives. My aunt was admitted to the hospital after she got epilepsy once again, but this time it was serious. She got bedridden, and she was hospitalised for almost 3 months. During this time, my mother was taking care of her at the hospital.

At the hospital, there was a nurse who shared about Jesus Christ with my mother. That nurse also took her to a Christian prophet. This was the point where things slowly started to shift by the grace and mercies of God. My mother and my mother’s elder sister bought Bibles. I also started reading the Bible in the year 2009. It must have been the Holy Spirit who melted my hardened heart.

My aunt’s condition became serious. That neighbour aunty gave my mother a piece of paper on which a repentance prayer was written and asked my mother to make my aunt pray that prayer. My mother did that, and she says that my aunt read it out, but only God knows what happened in her heart at that time. I don’t know whether my aunt was saved.

My aunt passed away on October 23, 2009, at 6:58 PM, and it shattered me and my family greatly. It was a dark time. We were grieving the loss of my aunt, who passed away due to a brain tumour. We also spent a great amount of money for my aunt to recover, but we couldn’t get her back.

In the midst of those difficult times, a prayer meeting was organized by Dr. Paul Dhinakaran (son of Brother D.G.S. Dhinakaran) on August 8, 2010, at Bethesda, Karunya.

Before attending the meeting, my grandfather did something remarkable. He knelt down and prayed to Jesus Christ, saying:

“If You are the true and living God, then call out my name through the preacher and reveal the things I am going through.”

He had his doubts and wondered if such things might be staged. Yet deep within, he was sincerely seeking the truth.

That day, my grandfather and mother attended the meeting. It was a huge crowd.

During the prayer time, Dr. Paul called out two names, but neither was my grandfather’s. He felt disappointed.

But then, led by the Holy Spirit, Dr. Paul called out a third name…

It was my grandfather’s name.

Not only that, he spoke about the personal struggles my grandfather was facing, his fear of death and the burdens in his heart.

That moment changed everything.

It was a divine encounter, a turning point in his life and in all of ours. My grandfather went up on stage and testified before everyone.

From that day on, our family came to Christ. Later, on November 4, 2012, we were baptized by immersion. My grandfather was 88 years old, and my grandmother was 75 at that time.

My grandfather later went to be with the Lord at the age of 95. My grandmother also went to be with the Lord recently at the age of 89.

When my grandfather passed away on February 10th, 2019, that was when my family members and relatives came to know that we were baptised. Some started treating us differently. My own uncle was very upset, and he verbally abused us and tried to keep us under his control. He also tried to get into a physical fight with me at that time.

Later, he would say that when my grandmother passed away, he would burn her body according to Hindu customs. He would challenge us, but when my grandmother passed away recently on March 9th this year, things turned out differently by the grace of God. My cousin told my uncle that since my grandfather was buried, my grandmother also should be buried at the same site. Some people supported that as well.

We received favor in the eyes of people. She was also buried in the same spot, and even though my uncle is not saved, he was the one who took care of all the expenses related to her burial.

God was our Refuge. How good and merciful God is.

No man in this world and no demon in hell can snatch the souls that are sealed by the Living God.

My grandparents could have passed away without knowing Christ, but in His mercy, He reached them in time.

He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us into the kingdom of His beloved Son, Jesus Christ.

Through all this, I have learned one thing with certainty:

If God wants to save someone, no one can stop it.

John 10:28–30,

“I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of My Father’s hand. I and the Father are one.”

Even though I knew about Jesus Christ in the year 2011 and loved Him, I was living a double life, one foot in the world and one foot in God’s Kingdom. During my college days, I wasn’t close to God. I was busy with worldly things.

Then, in the year 2017, I met with a motorbike accident, and that changed my life. I got injured and fractured my left ankle. I should have lost my life but by God’s Grace no vehicles ran over me. I had to take bed rest, and I was relieved from the firm. I was actually angry at God and shouted at Him, but it was my foolishness. My lifestyle wasn’t good at that time. If I had died then, I would have certainly ended up in hell.

Even though I did not drink, smoke, do drugs, or sleep with women, I had two addictions in my life which my family did not know about. They were porn and masturbation. I struggled with them for many years, and whenever I tried to stop by myself, the longest I could go was 22 or 23 days. Then again, I would relapse. I felt hopeless.

In 2018, while I was at home recovering from the motorbike accident, I slowly started reading the Bible, and then I saw my life slowly being transformed.

In 2018, a great miracle happened. I used to use Tinder at that time in order to find a genuine relationship because I felt lonely sometimes, but most of the time I was disappointed, as it was just casual for other people. Then I came across a woman who right-swiped on me. I started talking to her. She was an Indian Hindu woman who was studying in the Philippines to become a doctor. We used to play online games together.

I started sharing about Jesus Christ with her and about our story. She was receptive. It seems that one of her professors, who was a Christian doctor, had shared about Jesus with her. That lady doctor used to invite the students, share about Jesus Christ, and give them food. So, seeds were already sown in her life. I was just watering it, by the Grace of God.

Later, there came a moment in her life when she flunked one of her exams along with her friend, and she got caught. She was asked to repeat one year again, but at that time, she prayed to Jesus Christ, and things turned around, and she was forgiven. Then she started believing in Jesus Christ. It was all the Lord’s doing.

I started liking her. At that point in time, Jesus Christ set me free from porn and masturbation addictions, and it has been almost 8 years now. That was a remarkable year in my life. I would say that I was truly coming to Jesus Christ during those years. Even though we parted ways recently because of some personal situations, God has been good to us.

Jesus Christ gave me a burden to share the Gospel with people. I used to install apps like Bottled, Slowly, etc., and share about Jesus Christ with people, and sometimes I would get banned.

In 2020, I would say that my relationship with Jesus Christ strengthened. I didn’t know we could be so close to God.

One day, my phone stopped functioning. I think it was in the year 2021. I went to enquire about the repair at a mobile shop. There, I saw an old man. At that time, I felt led to share about Jesus Christ, and I told him that Jesus Christ loves him. Then, on the same day, I said that to 3–4 people, if I am not wrong. Slowly, this became a habit.

During those COVID times, I got Gospel tracts and started giving them out to strangers here and there. The crazy thing was that no one had to teach me to do all these things. I feel like it was the Holy Spirit teaching me all that. It was God who put that burden for souls in my heart. I couldn’t make it up myself because I did not care about people, in the past.

Once, while I was sharing about Jesus Christ with a watchman, he suddenly started crying in the middle of the road. I was surprised and deeply moved by what I saw.

Another time, I was sharing about Jesus Christ with a fruit vendor. He told me that he felt goosebumps throughout his body while I was speaking to him. I was astonished and also very happy. It felt like Jesus Christ was touching his heart and making him aware of His presence.

These moments have stayed with me. They reminded me that when we share the Gospel, we may never know what God is doing in someone’s heart.
The world often tells us that things have to be extraordinary to make a difference. But sometimes, it is through the simplest moments that God transforms people’s lives.

So, do not hesitate to share about Jesus Christ with others when He nudges you. Never underestimate what God can do through you as an individual, and never look down upon yourself or the role God has given you. Our role is simply to be faithful and share the love of Jesus Christ and leave the results in His hands.

By the grace of God, I felt the tangible presence of Jesus Christ twice in my life.

Once was in the year 2021 when a pastor laid hands on me and prayed. I felt waves of electricity on the palms of both my hands, and I also felt fire on my tongue. It was surreal.

Another time was on June 18, 2023. There is a local TV channel in my city called “Sathiyam TV.” On that channel, they used to telecast a live Christian prayer every weekend at 7 PM, where the speaker, Bro. Mohan C. Lazarus, prayed for healing, deliverance, and miracles for people.

So, on Sunday, June 18th, I was actually watching the speaker talk about many things, but I was also scrolling on my phone. I didn’t have much expectation because I thought, “How is God going to bless a person who keeps scrolling on the phone while listening to the prayer?”

Then the time of prayer came. I think it was between 8:50 PM and 8:55 PM. The speaker started to pray on the television, and I also knelt down in my room and prayed to Jesus while the speaker was praying through the television.

I didn’t expect much to happen because I felt like I was scrolling on my phone and not listening properly. But when I knelt down, closed my eyes, and started to pray, I started feeling the presence of the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ. It felt like currents of electricity. At first, I thought I was just imagining it, but then it became so strong that the presence moved through almost my whole body.

It lasted for around 20 minutes, if I am not wrong. I couldn’t feel my body at that point. I thought I was going to fly away. I couldn’t believe it. It was so exciting. That was one of the days I will never forget in my life.

Jesus Christ also saved my life from death traps. Jesus Christ gave me a new life. He also gave me a new and good job after the accident, even when I had almost a 3 and a half year gap. God is so good!

I was a selfish person earlier, but I feel He is leading me on a path of selflessness. I am not perfect, but Jesus Christ convicts me about right and wrong. I find that to be a gift. It is a beautiful experience to know that God is there by your side personally.

This is our journey. Personally, I still have so much to improve. Jesus Christ has done so much for us. I hope you are strengthened and edified by this testimony.

Know that you are not alone. You are alive for a reason. God wants you. He wants to use you for His Kingdom. Never end your life at any point in time. There will be good and hard times, but that is what makes life beautiful. Hard times help us understand the depth of emotions and help us have empathy toward our fellow human beings. We have to look at this world through the eyes of God.

Pray and never be afraid to reach out when things get hard. It is not weakness, but strength.

You are not reading this by accident. Jesus Christ has a beautiful purpose for your life. He cares about you. He loves you. You just need to give your 100% to Him, and He will take you from there. Fully surrender every area of your life to God.

Nothing in this world is worth going to Hell for eternally. Satan tries to bait us with perishing things. Looks, money, wealth, materialism and status will all fade away in the snap of a finger. We can be so successful in this world, but if we do not reach Heaven, we have failed big time.

Matthew 16:26,

“What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?”

I would like to share another Bible verse:

Hebrews 12:1,

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”

If you are struggling with addictions or with life in general, please don’t believe the lie that you are too far gone or that your life has no meaning.

I know what it feels like to be trapped in something you desperately want to escape from, and to feel ashamed, hopeless, and unable to change. But your past does not define your worth, and your struggles do not define who you are. Jesus Christ can meet you even in the darkest place. He met me when I had reached rock bottom, and by His grace, He set me free and gave me a new life. Please don’t give up. Cry out to God, seek Him, and take the next step, even if it feels small.

**You are not worthless. Your life is precious. You are created in the image of God, and there is still hope for you. Jesus Christ loves you, and He has not forgotten you.**

In the last five years, Jesus Christ has turned my life upside down, but in the best possible way.

In March 2023, I was searching for a job after leaving my previous company. At that point, I didn’t have a house of my own either, and honestly, I couldn’t see how things were going to change.

Interestingly, a few months before joining, I had been rejected by the same software company in the second round of interviews. I gave a complicated example, which was my mistake, and deep down, I knew that I had fumbled. I still remember how low I felt when I was returning home from my office that day. I felt like I had lost a great opportunity because it was a well known airline company in India.

But the door that had been closed earlier was opened by God later in a miraculous way.

A few months later, I got another opportunity to work on projects for that same company, and this time, I cleared the interview with ease. Just 10 minutes after finishing the interview, I received a call from HR saying that I had been selected. I can only attribute this to the grace of our loving Lord Jesus.

This reminded me that when God wants to open a door, no person can ultimately prevent His purpose. Jesus Christ gave me the opportunity to work there for almost two years, complete multiple projects successfully, and even receive appreciation and a bonus.

There was even one moment that I found amazing. One day at work, I was sitting in a conference room with the very person who had rejected me a few months earlier. I don’t know if she remembered me or even realized that she had once rejected me, but I knew the significance of that moment. The same company that once said no had eventually become a place where Jesus Christ gave me the opportunity to work for almost two years. Only God could have written a story like that.

During those almost two years, God also blessed me with an empathetic and understanding manager. He is not a believer, but he showed me kindness and support in ways I will always remember.

There were some difficult times in my personal life during those years. One time, he called me into a conference room and told me that I seemed distracted. He asked me if I was going through something in my life. Sometimes, he would even come to my cabin and ask me why I looked sad. He noticed things that I hadn’t even spoken about and genuinely cared enough to ask.

When my grandmother was sick, he even asked me if I needed any financial help. Those moments meant a lot to me, especially during difficult times. I truly believe Jesus Christ gave me favour and mercy in the eyes of the people around me. The kindness and support I received from my manager were another example of God’s grace in my life, and it is something I will always be grateful for.

It’s crazy to look back and see how much can change in just two years. There was a time when I couldn’t see a way forward, but God was already working behind the scenes.

Recently, I had to move to another company because the project contract at my previous firm came to an end. Once again, I saw God’s faithfulness in my life. Jesus Christ opened another door for me and blessed me with a 100% increase in my salary compared to what I was earning previously.

God knows what we need even when we cannot see what is ahead. What looks like an ending to us can sometimes be the beginning of something God has already prepared.

Looking back now, I can only say, God is good. There is nothing for me or my family to boast about ourselves, but there is everything to boast about our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. He did not save us when we were shining, but when we were surrounded by darkness. No matter how much we thank Him, it will never be enough.

This is our journey. Personally, I still have so much to improve. Jesus Christ has done so much for us. I hope you are strengthened and edified by this testimony.

Know that you are not alone. You are alive for a reason. God wants you. He wants to use you for His Kingdom. Never end your life at any point in time. There will be good and hard times, but that is what makes life beautiful. Hard times help us understand the depth of emotions and help us have empathy toward our fellow human beings. We have to look at this world through the eyes of God.

Pray and never be afraid to reach out when things get hard. It is not weakness, but strength.

You are not reading this by accident. Jesus Christ has a beautiful purpose for your life. He cares about you. He loves you. You just need to give your 100% to Him, and He will take you from there. Fully surrender every area of your life to God.

Nothing in this world is worth going to Hell for eternally. Satan tries to bait us with perishing things. Looks, money, wealth, materialism and status will all fade away in the snap of a finger. We can be so successful in this world, but if we do not reach Heaven, we have failed big time.

Matthew 16:26,

“What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?”

Hebrews 12:1,

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”

If you are going through a difficult season right now, please don’t give up.

Keep fighting the good fight of faith. Even when you cannot see what God is doing, trust that He is working. Your story is not over, and your life has more value than you may realize.

Even though I have shared some of the material blessings God has given me, I want to make one thing clear: eternal life is the greatest gift a person can ever have. Houses, jobs, money, success, and everything else in this world are temporary. But eternal life through Jesus Christ is forever. Let us hold on to Christ and never lose sight of what matters most.

1 Timothy 6:12,

“Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.”

You are important to Jesus Christ. He loves you, He has not forgotten you, and there is still hope.

Remember this: When God is with you, you are the majority.

Keep fighting the good fight of faith till your last breath, because it’s all worth it in the end.

Have a beautiful day, everyone.

All Glory to the Most High God, Jesus Christ alone.

Amen.

✝️

u/KungFuBlackBelch — 2 days ago

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The Secret Life of a Christian Man Addicted to Porn.

I'm a Christian, and for most of my life I thought struggling with porn meant something was wrong with me. Growing up, nobody really taught me much about sexuality. I was around 15 or 16 when my dad first talked to me about porn, and my mum started talking about it more around then. By that point, I'd already spent years trying to figure out what was happening to my body, what attraction was, what sexuality was, and what it meant to grow from a boy into a man.

The message I mostly heard was simple. Don't watch porn. Stay pure. Save yourself for your wife. Avoid temptation. Bounce your eyes. And I genuinely wanted to do that. I wanted to be a good Christian. So I'd pray, repent, ask God to forgive me, promise I'd never do it again, and then eventually I'd go back. Every time I did, the shame got worse. I felt like I was disobeying God. I felt like I was disobeying my parents. I felt broken. And because nobody talked about it, I genuinely thought I was the only Christian guy struggling with this. On the outside I was the good Christian boy going to church, reading my Bible, memorising Scripture and singing the songs. Inside, I was dealing with shame, confusion and self hatred. It felt like I was living two lives.

It took me years to realise I wasn't broken. I was a boy who hadn't been given much guidance about sexuality, and I was trying to figure it out on my own. I also eventually understood the shame cycle. I'd watch porn, feel ashamed, hate myself, promise I'd never do it again, and then eventually use porn again to numb those feelings. So porn became a way of escaping feelings I didn't know how to deal with. Loneliness. Anger. Shame. Confusion.

I also had to learn that attraction and lust aren't the same thing. Being attracted to women isn't inherently wrong. God created sexuality. The problem is when you stop seeing someone as a person and start objectifying them. For years I prayed that God would take my sexual desire away. Looking back, I'm actually glad He didn't. I needed to learn how to understand my sexuality, not have it removed.

And I think that's something we don't talk about enough in Christianity. We're told what not to do, but sometimes we're not taught how to actually understand what we're experiencing. I'm also part of the first generation to grow up with porn being so accessible, affordable and anonymous. You can struggle with it completely alone and nobody has to know.

So if you're a Christian guy struggling with porn, I just want you to know you're not alone. You're not broken. You might have watched it five minutes ago and feel like you've failed God again. Brother, you're going to be okay.

I've started talking about this more openly on my YouTube channel, including what I've learned from spending years stuck in this cycle and how I'm learning to understand sexuality, shame and becoming a man from a Christian perspective. If this is something you're struggling with, you can find my YouTube channel at Jack Tolk

u/JackToholke — 1 day ago

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Finally got the courage

I'm 21 and I've struggled with porn for about six years. Over time, bondage and feminization have become my main kinks, especially through porn and "caption" content. I've tried to quit many times, sometimes successfully for a while, but I always seem to fall back into it.

I'm heterosexual, attracted to women and ultimately want a relationship with a woman. I've never been in a relationship, though, meaning almost all of my sexual experience so far has been through porn, masturbation and fantasy.

I'm also a believer of faith, which makes the feminization side particularly difficult for me. It's incredibly sexually appealing to me, but when I'm not aroused, I genuinely don't want to pursue that direction in my life.

It really hit me that this seems to be escalating from something I watch and fantasize about into something I'm actively recreating.

I'm not primarily ashamed of having unusual kinks, nor am I asking anyone to diagnose my sexuality or gender identity. I'm worried about losing control over what I choose to cultivate. I don't know how much of this is naturally part of my sexuality and how much six years of porn has reinforced it.

I've tried stopping countless times. Clearly, willpower alone isn't working.

Has anyone dealt with a similar pattern of porn/fantasy gradually moving into real-life behavior? What actually helped you regain control?

u/CharlesEastern — 1 day ago

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I sin, I lust, I can’t stop. God save me.

I began consuming large amounts of pornography at the ripe age of 7 years old. It has became such a sinful habit, I cannot control my self no longer. I feel such guilt, I must repent, but I cannot and do not stop.

My brother watched it, and introduced it to me. I wonder if this is a family problem, perhaps god is testing my family? My father and mother have discovered this disgustingly horrible content I’ve been watching. Now, I do not know how to view women. I want a meaningful Christian relationship. But at this rate, I just don’t see that it’s possible. Women have become objects within my eyes, a horrible thought, but sin controls me. The women in my life have realized these awful truths.

For example, I once took photos up a girls skirt, how can I ever be forgiven??? I’ve even tried to touch my female friends, they think it’s casual, but it’s so much more to me. I’ve confided in a female friend about these urges, and she told me about these subreddits to seek help.

In the words of Matthew 5:28, I have to take accountability.

Please I am asking for any advice, I am starting from rock bottom. Thank you so much for reading. God bless.

u/boundless_wind — 3 days ago

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I relapsed and everything is worse

Back in Winter I (22m) managed to go without porn for 3 months (the longest I have gone without it since 17). I was alone in my house on New Year's and felt tempted to do it again, and I did. It's been months since then and I am a wreck. My sexual desires are growing intensely and I feel awful. There are times where I feel like I am going insane trying to be celibate.

It's been 5 years and I have never surpassed a year. Please pray for me.

u/Guided_Feather — 1 day ago

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I failed again

I’m back from the last time I posted I failed again I relapsed with lust. I saw the ghost from my past today I felt alone scared I tried to run away but it was to late. I failed I’m truly a bad person. I read the bible I praise god day and night but I can’t save myself. I’m a monster I just want to be something in life. this whole journey started back in may I said would stop but I haven’t. I wanted to get disciplined go to the gym and be a better person and god gave me those things and I still failed I feel like I stabbed him in the back. i feel every time I’ve done this I always think why did god allow me to gain a conscious why me. I had autism bad and one day it clicked .but was it worth it some days I wish I was still autistic and wasn’t alone scared and filled with anxiety. I just want a conversation who’s been through this I thinks that’s what I need more than anything pls help out I’m sorry for what I’ve done I pray god forgives me.

u/Aus_tin0630 — 2 days ago

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10 days clean. Optmisitic

So far, it’s been easier than I thought. Recently have had the urge to masturbate without lewd material. What are your opinions?

u/danieltennessee — 2 days ago

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Day 188

Daily check in. Today I felt better than yesterday, and work was fine. I wanted to work more than yesterday. After work, I went for a walk and then played American Truck Simulator and Wow. I'm still standing!

u/Geoff9898 — 2 days ago

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Tempted by porn addict girl in this forum

Ididn't relapse, but a girl in this forum who struggles with porn addiction asked me for sex chatting as she couldn't hold the urge. Its crazy. Even on this side...

u/Ok-Contest3689 — 3 days ago

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Help me stop please😢

Im 15 it started when i was like 13 and since then i could stop lust everytime i try i relapse like every 1-2 weeks and i blocked sites but i still do it on reddit or imagine it. So im gonna try a different metod im gonna join this community because i never tried it before and im gonna need to write here everyday. Got any useful info how to stop please ?

u/Joska2222 — 2 days ago

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Addicted to porn, sexting and domination

Hey, no idea where to start but I’m 27 m now and it all started with like 12. Back then I was on Kik (chatting app) and dominated by someone )I didn’t even know what I was doing. Since then things have only been going down. My whole sex life is online: twitter , fetlife, Snappchat, dating apps, Porn, cams etc. While in real life I am still a virgin and never even tried dating someone.

Im a super anxious and shy person in general and kind of use this as a validation method. I love getting compliments from doms and being told how useless or bad I am. I enjoy the attention and totally giving up control as I never give up control in real life. I often send pictures or videos doing sexual stuff , often with my face and I have probably already been leaked somewhere.

It all escalated more and more over the years:

Today I have days where I do nothing expect being dominated and watching porn , I even already had rough skin on my dick several times due to masturbating so much.

I consume super extreme stuff like puke, scat , piss , spankings till blood , fisting , animated stuff , exposure, ass to mouth, Trans Dom , gay Slave etc. I am disgusted about all that things when I’m outside and not alone.

Doms already made me do super messed up stuff ass well. Like licking the toilet , ass to mouth , inserting objects or things in my ass (which I sometimes barely got out), making me spank myself till I was all blue (couldn’t even go to gym then due to public showers), making me drink my piss, making me puke etc. All while having me film myself.

I often get apps like fetlife, grinder etc. Just to talk to people setting up plans , but I never met anyone. I only ever loved girls but I mainly sext with trans and guys as it’s way easier to find some that are just as disgusting as me and willing to do that stuff to me. Which makes me question my sexuality, even though I never ever had romantic feelings for a guy. I even don’t care what they look like As long as they are disgusting like me. I get dominated by stinky , old , fat , disgusting people that probably didn’t shower for a weak that I would absolutely avoid on the real world.

And every day things are getting worse and I’m craving more and more messy fetishes and stuff. I keep expending my limits and disgust myself more and more.

All that while my real life is falling apart. I’m isolating myself , losing confidence, hating myself , shouting down my feelings, closing up. My studying is on wait for several years as I can’t bring myself to finish it even though I have good marks. I need to apply for an internship that I have been procrastinating for years. I never even send an application. I have been lying about my life to my family and friends. All just because I hate myself for it. Now it feels harder and harder to get out of it and the mir Ei feel down the more I’m craving to get disgusting and dominated online.

Is there a way out of this?

u/Outside-Repair3663 — 2 days ago

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Can I ask women?

I’m not sure if this is the right place to post this. But I’m wondering how women feel about men masturbating. You can answer this as a male but I’ve never asked a girl this and I’m genuinely curious. I know as a man, I sometimes feel shame. I’ve felt disgusting and gross at times. I’ve also felt indifferent at times. I feel like I set out to pursue pleasure, but I don’t know what’s always best for me. I just want to change my perspective on masturbation and I’m not really sure how.

u/Economy-Brush1091 — 2 days ago

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Relapsed.

Basically i been gooning for around 3 months and i can only stay 1-3 days without gooning and i really wanna stop. Is there anyone i can talk to? I just relapsed and i feel like this cycle will never end because each day i try to go without gooning its just so hard to stop the urges. Please help me i dont want to lose myself

u/Valuable-Tie-8577 — 3 days ago

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I feel like it’s harder when waiting for marriage.

I am in a committed relationship but we both have agreed not to have sex until we get married. I know many of you may disagree but this is our choice we’ve both made.

I just am wondering if anyone else is doing nofap in this situation. Is it that much harder compared to couples who have regular sex ?

u/tripoliban — 4 days ago

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Stop asking God to remove a temptation you keep feeding

I think a lot of us have done this.

We relapse, feel horrible, pray, ask God to take the temptation away… then the next day we go right back to the exact same routine that feeds it.

Same apps.

Same late nights.

Same accounts.

Same phone in bed.

Same privacy.

Then when temptation comes back, we act shocked.

At some point I think we have to be honest: prayer is not supposed to replace obedience.

If you know something keeps pulling you toward porn, why are you still protecting it?

Jesus said in Matthew 5 that if something causes you to stumble, cut it off. He wasn’t telling people to hurt themselves. He was making the point that sin is serious enough to justify serious changes.

Sometimes that looks very ordinary.

Deleting an app.

Blocking porn.

Leaving your phone outside the bedroom.

Unfollowing accounts you already know stir up lust.

Telling someone you trust what’s really going on.

None of that earns God’s love. That’s not the point.

The point is: if you keep asking God for freedom while keeping every door to the same sin wide open, you’re making the fight harder than it needs to be.

1 Corinthians 6:18 says to flee sexual immorality.

Flee means flee.

Not stand two inches away from it and see how strong your willpower is.

Sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is put the phone down and walk away.

u/quitpornio — 3 days ago

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God's perfect timing: A powerful testimony that stopped me from relapsing today

I wanted to share an experience I just had that feels like a direct intervention from God. I was feeling completely empty today and was right on the edge of giving in and starting a session. Right at that critical moment, while I was browsing my phone, I stumbled upon a video testimony that completely stopped me in my tracks. It truly felt like God was speaking directly to me exactly when I needed it most.

The video is a testimony from a young woman who accidentally discovered pornography on her phone when she was just 13. I have absolutely no personal connection to her, but her story struck me so deeply that I felt compelled to share it with this community.

Despite her young age, she expresses herself with incredible clarity. She is remarkably insightful when describing the deep root causes of this addiction, as well as the beautiful, difficult process of restoration and healing.

If anyone else is feeling empty, tempted, or lost today, I highly recommend taking a few minutes to watch this. It saved me today, and I hope it can help someone else too. God's timing is always perfect.

I'm not exactly sure what the subreddit rules are regarding posting direct links, so just to be safe, I'm not going to link it here. However, you can find her easily on Instagram by checking her Reels - her handle is adriakathleen (Adria Coghlin).

Stay strong and God bless.

u/davidshavian — 3 days ago

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I can't stop with that

Guys, I need help. It's been 4 years since I started masturbating, starting with just masturbation and inevitably progressing to porn. I'm addicted, I can't stop at all, the longest I've managed to go without anything is 9 days, nothing more. My problem isn't internet triggers or anything like that, it's thoughts that end up progressing until they become action. I've started training and trying to get closer to God, but nothing helps. I really want to get rid of this, I can't stand being a slave to porn anymore. Please, help.

u/Louis375 — 3 days ago

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In my second month. Had second wet dream

I flaired as relapse because seriously the last time I had a surreal sexual dream I woke up with my hand on my junk basically masterbaition in my sleep.

Last night I woke up as it was happening and I always have to like throttle it out of my system with my hand if I wake up having a wet dream because at that point I figure I might as well finish the process. It's already happening and I find it extremely uncomfortable and almost painful to wake up while having an orgasm and just lay there without touching it.

So how do I stop these events from happening ? It also reactivates my sex drive and I notice I crave sex more after these events

u/elbanevado — 3 days ago