u/Outside-Repair3663

Hey, no idea where to start but I’m 27 m now and it all started with like 12. Back then I was on Kik (chatting app) and dominated by someone )I didn’t even know what I was doing. Since then things have only been going down. My whole sex life is online: twitter , fetlife, Snappchat, dating apps, Porn, cams etc. While in real life I am still a virgin and never even tried dating someone.

Im a super anxious and shy person in general and kind of use this as a validation method. I love getting compliments from doms and being told how useless or bad I am. I enjoy the attention and totally giving up control as I never give up control in real life. I often send pictures or videos doing sexual stuff , often with my face and I have probably already been leaked somewhere.

It all escalated more and more over the years:

Today I have days where I do nothing expect being dominated and watching porn , I even already had rough skin on my dick several times due to masturbating so much.

I consume super extreme stuff like puke, scat , piss , spankings till blood , fisting , animated stuff , exposure, ass to mouth, Trans Dom , gay Slave etc. I am disgusted about all that things when I’m outside and not alone.

Doms already made me do super messed up stuff ass well. Like licking the toilet , ass to mouth , inserting objects or things in my ass (which I sometimes barely got out), making me spank myself till I was all blue (couldn’t even go to gym then due to public showers), making me drink my piss, making me puke etc. All while having me film myself.

I often get apps like fetlife, grinder etc. Just to talk to people setting up plans , but I never met anyone. I only ever loved girls but I mainly sext with trans and guys as it’s way easier to find some that are just as disgusting as me and willing to do that stuff to me. Which makes me question my sexuality, even though I never ever had romantic feelings for a guy. I even don’t care what they look like As long as they are disgusting like me. I get dominated by stinky , old , fat , disgusting people that probably didn’t shower for a weak that I would absolutely avoid on the real world.

And every day things are getting worse and I’m craving more and more messy fetishes and stuff. I keep expending my limits and disgust myself more and more.

All that while my real life is falling apart. I’m isolating myself , losing confidence, hating myself , shouting down my feelings, closing up. My studying is on wait for several years as I can’t bring myself to finish it even though I have good marks. I need to apply for an internship that I have been procrastinating for years. I never even send an application. I have been lying about my life to my family and friends. All just because I hate myself for it. Now it feels harder and harder to get out of it and the mir Ei feel down the more I’m craving to get disgusting and dominated online.

Is there a way out of this?

Hey, no idea where to start but I’m 27 m now and it all started with like 12. Back then I was on Kik (chatting app) and dominated by someone )I didn’t even know what I was doing. Since then things have only been going down. My whole sex life is online: twitter , fetlife, Snappchat, dating apps, Porn, cams etc. While in real life I am still a virgin and never even tried dating someone.

Im a super anxious and shy person in general and kind of use this as a validation method. I love getting compliments from doms and being told how useless or bad I am. I enjoy the attention and totally giving up control as I never give up control in real life. I often send pictures or videos doing sexual stuff , often with my face and I have probably already been leaked somewhere.

It all escalated more and more over the years:

Today I have days where I do nothing expect being dominated and watching porn , I even already had rough skin on my dick several times due to masturbating so much.

I consume super extreme stuff like puke, scat , piss , spankings till blood , fisting , animated stuff , exposure, ass to mouth, Trans Dom , gay Slave etc. I am disgusted about all that things when I’m outside and not alone.

Doms already made me do super messed up stuff ass well. Like licking the toilet , ass to mouth , inserting objects or things in my ass (which I sometimes barely got out), making me spank myself till I was all blue (couldn’t even go to gym then due to public showers), making me drink my piss, making me puke etc. All while having me film myself.

I often get apps like fetlife, grinder etc. Just to talk to people setting up plans , but I never met anyone. I only ever loved girls but I mainly sext with trans and guys as it’s way easier to find some that are just as disgusting as me and willing to do that stuff to me. Which makes me question my sexuality, even though I never ever had romantic feelings for a guy. I even don’t care what they look like As long as they are disgusting like me. I get dominated by stinky , old , fat , disgusting people that probably didn’t shower for a weak that I would absolutely avoid on the real world.

And every day things are getting worse and I’m craving more and more messy fetishes and stuff. I keep expending my limits and disgust myself more and more.

All that while my real life is falling apart. I’m isolating myself , losing confidence, hating myself , shouting down my feelings, closing up. My studying is on wait for several years as I can’t bring myself to finish it even though I have good marks. I need to apply for an internship that I have been procrastinating for years. I never even send an application. I have been lying about my life to my family and friends. All just because I hate myself for it. Now it feels harder and harder to get out of it and the mir Ei feel down the more I’m craving to get disgusting and dominated online.

Is there a way out of this?

Hey, no idea where to start but I’m 27 m now and it all started with like 12. Back then I was on Kik (chatting app) and dominated by someone )I didn’t even know what I was doing. Since then things have only been going down. My whole sex life is online: twitter , fetlife, Snappchat, dating apps, Porn, cams etc. While in real life I am still a virgin and never even tried dating someone.

Im a super anxious and shy person in general and kind of use this as a validation method. I love getting compliments from doms and being told how useless or bad I am. I enjoy the attention and totally giving up control as I never give up control in real life. I often send pictures or videos doing sexual stuff , often with my face and I have probably already been leaked somewhere.

It all escalated more and more over the years:

Today I have days where I do nothing expect being dominated and watching porn , I even already had rough skin on my dick several times due to masturbating so much.

I consume super extreme stuff like puke, scat , piss , spankings till blood , fisting , animated stuff , exposure, ass to mouth, Trans Dom , gay Slave etc. I am disgusted about all that things when I’m outside and not alone.

Doms already made me do super messed up stuff ass well. Like licking the toilet , ass to mouth , inserting objects or things in my ass (which I sometimes barely got out), making me spank myself till I was all blue (couldn’t even go to gym then due to public showers), making me drink my piss, making me puke etc. All while having me film myself.

I often get apps like fetlife, grinder etc. Just to talk to people setting up plans , but I never met anyone. I only ever loved girls but I mainly sext with trans and guys as it’s way easier to find some that are just as disgusting as me and willing to do that stuff to me. Which makes me question my sexuality, even though I never ever had romantic feelings for a guy. I even don’t care what they look like As long as they are disgusting like me. I get dominated by stinky , old , fat , disgusting people that probably didn’t shower for a weak that I would absolutely avoid on the real world.

And every day things are getting worse and I’m craving more and more messy fetishes and stuff. I keep expending my limits and disgust myself more and more.

All that while my real life is falling apart. I’m isolating myself , losing confidence, hating myself , shouting down my feelings, closing up. My studying is on wait for several years as I can’t bring myself to finish it even though I have good marks. I need to apply for an internship that I have been procrastinating for years. I never even send an application. I have been lying about my life to my family and friends. All just because I hate myself for it. Now it feels harder and harder to get out of it and the mir Ei feel down the more I’m craving to get disgusting and dominated online.

Is there a way out of this?

Hey, no idea where to start but I’m 27 m now and it all started with like 12. Back then I was on Kik (chatting app) and dominated by someone )I didn’t even know what I was doing. Since then things have only been going down. My whole sex life is online: twitter , fetlife, Snappchat, dating apps, Porn, cams etc. While in real life I am still a virgin and never even tried dating someone.

Im a super anxious and shy person in general and kind of use this as a validation method. I love getting compliments from doms and being told how useless or bad I am. I enjoy the attention and totally giving up control as I never give up control in real life. I often send pictures or videos doing sexual stuff , often with my face and I have probably already been leaked somewhere.

It all escalated more and more over the years:

Today I have days where I do nothing expect being dominated and watching porn , I even already had rough skin on my dick several times due to masturbating so much.

I consume super extreme stuff like puke, scat , piss , spankings till blood , fisting , animated stuff , exposure, ass to mouth, Trans Dom , gay Slave etc. I am disgusted about all that things when I’m outside and not alone.

Doms already made me do super messed up stuff ass well. Like licking the toilet , ass to mouth , inserting objects or things in my ass (which I sometimes barely got out), making me spank myself till I was all blue (couldn’t even go to gym then due to public showers), making me drink my piss, making me puke etc. All while having me film myself.

I often get apps like fetlife, grinder etc. Just to talk to people setting up plans , but I never met anyone. I only ever loved girls but I mainly sext with trans and guys as it’s way easier to find some that are just as disgusting as me and willing to do that stuff to me. Which makes me question my sexuality, even though I never ever had romantic feelings for a guy. I even don’t care what they look like As long as they are disgusting like me. I get dominated by stinky , old , fat , disgusting people that probably didn’t shower for a weak that I would absolutely avoid on the real world.

And every day things are getting worse and I’m craving more and more messy fetishes and stuff. I keep expending my limits and disgust myself more and more.

All that while my real life is falling apart. I’m isolating myself , losing confidence, hating myself , shouting down my feelings, closing up. My studying is on wait for several years as I can’t bring myself to finish it even though I have good marks. I need to apply for an internship that I have been procrastinating for years. I never even send an application. I have been lying about my life to my family and friends. All just because I hate myself for it. Now it feels harder and harder to get out of it and the mir Ei feel down the more I’m craving to get disgusting and dominated online.

Is there a way out of this?