Just want to vent a little
My first born is now a toddler almost 17 months old and we have the second one due in later this year. I went back to work in the past January and got a new manager who just sucks. My previous manager was so amazing that I legit stayed at this job because of him. The job itself is still ok because it pays well for how little I have to work and it has decent benefits, but I don't enjoy it.
The pregnancy is pretty rough this time around. I'm really nauseous/fatigued most of the day and had to sleep a lot in the first trimester. I thought things would be better in the second trimester, since that's what happened last time. But I'm still so tired. I even nap in the middle of the day 2-4 hours (I wfh and it's flexible when I do my work as long as it's done), but I just don't have the energy to even pick up my toddler on most days. My husband has been great, he does all the house chores and looks after our toddler. I only have solo parent duties for 3 hours at a time, 3 times a week when he goes to play sports.
I feel so bad like I'm missing out on the previous toddler year with her but I have so little energy. Husband takes her to the park everyday for an hour and some days I don't even have the energy to walk to the park to watch them play. I think my absence from her everyday life is affecting our relationship now. Today she was super fussy so I held her and tried to comfort her. She insisted on being put down then immediately ran to her dad to get picked up. On one hand I felt relieved because I was exhausted, didn't have the energy and was glad the issue could be resolved without me. But at the same time I also felt kinda bad I'm not effectively there for her.
Just wanted to vent a little and hope my energy level can improve soon so I can participate in her life more. And if anyone has any advice on managing energy levels or how to power through it please let me know! Thanks