Relationship Ls
Just finished a Rohmer movie so I'm feeling pretty wistful and thought I would share a couple of losses I took lately
I was reading at a park and kinda lost track of time. The sun was starting to set and I decided to go to an elevated part of the park to watch the sunset. I was there for a bit and it seemed like I was by myself but I looked over and saw a really pretty woman there also watching the sunset. I summoned some courage and made a comment about the sunset and we started talking. She mentioned that she saw me earlier and we started talking about books, our interest, future goals, etc. The sun set, we walked back to our cars, I asked her if she would like to get lunch some time. She seemed excited and said yes. I texted her later to try and set something up and never heard back
Similar story but we met in the tea section of target lol. We discussed different selections and preferences. Got her number, never heard back from her
Spent around two months talking to someone, hundreds of texts, we hung out a few times and really seemed to click. Eventually I invited her over to my place and we ended up sleeping together. I spent a lot of time eating her out, she seemed to love it and later told me it was amazing. We texted for a few more days after but she very suddenly stopped responding
Again, same exact story basically, but this time we hung out briefly one more time after sleeping together and then she very suddenly stopped responding to me. No closure.
At a certain point I actually started thinking maybe my phone was broken or she had passed away because no way this keeps happening. I've done some reflection and I'm having a hard time finding a through line between these experiences. Maybe its a modern dating thing, maybe I'm not built for this
I'm too sensitive. I told myself I'm going to take some time off because all of this weighs on me more than it probably should