Finally decided to bite the bullet
I know it's a bit of a cliche, but yesterday I finally got the courage to come out to my mom, and wanted to share.
For the context, I'm 24, live in central Asia alone, away from my parents, not on hrt yet. Despite that we are quite close with my family and chat very often. So about a week ago, after several years of questioning I finally started opening up about myself and came out to my close supportive friends. Then after some time I decided to tell my sisters about it and they were supportive too (and even told me that they're not surprised).
Now when it comes to my mom, it's never been easy for me to talk with her. She is a person who is willing to help and change, but gets frustrated when something doesn't go the way she wants.
I was planning to visit my parents in June and wanted to come out then, but with everyone else calling me by preferred name and pronouns, it was getting very uncomfortable for me when she was calling me "son", and so I just decided to do it and see how it goes.
Now at first it felt like she was seeing it as another instance of me being weird. She asked me how I would like to be addressed, and would it be okay if she continued calling me "son", to which I clearly said no, and that I want her to address me as her daughter and use my preferred name and pronouns.
In the end. She told me that it would be difficult for her to accept the change, and that it would be better if we don't tell my father, at least for now. But, as she said "it's your own life and you decide how to live it". She told me to stay safe, don't do drugs and don't be hard on myself.
It was a very stressful evening for me and I woke up feeling like I got a hangover. But I'm starting to feel relieved that it's finally out in the open and I don't have to hide myself from her.
I'm still coming over to my parents in June and I guess it would be the best time to tell her about hrt, and discuss my furniture plans.