My parents’ divorce is slowly ruining my peace, and I feel like I’m becoming a burden to the only person helping me.
I honestly don't know where else to put this, but I need to get it off my chest.
My parents are going through a divorce, and what hurts the most is how irresponsible they've both become throughout the whole process. It's like they're so caught up in their anger and whatever issues they have with each other that they've completely forgotten they still have a child caught in the middle.
The constant tension, arguments, and emotional distance have made home feel like somewhere I no longer belong. Eventually, I decided to move in with my friend Vicentia because I just needed somewhere peaceful to breathe.
She's been kind enough to let me stay with her, and I genuinely appreciate it. But lately, I've started feeling like I'm overstaying my welcome.
I can't tell if she's actually getting tired of having me around or if I'm just overthinking every little change in her tone, every quiet moment, and every time she seems less enthusiastic than usual. I find myself questioning whether I'm being too much, whether she secretly wishes I'd leave, or whether I'm just projecting my own insecurities onto her.
The worst part is that I don't even feel comfortable asking because I don't want to make things awkward or seem ungrateful.
I feel like I've gone from being someone who had a home to someone who's constantly trying not to inconvenience the person giving them shelter.
I don't blame Vicentia for anything. She has her own life, responsibilities, and problems. I just wish I wasn't in a position where I had to wonder whether my presence is becoming a burden.
And honestly, I'm exhausted. I didn't ask for my parents' marriage to fall apart, but somehow I'm the one trying to figure out where I belong while they continue acting like their divorce is the only thing that matters.
I miss feeling wanted somewhere without having to question it.