u/ChapterReasonable764

I met am infp girl in my photography club of college in the nov of 2025.

since then we're talking in very light way till December ( freinds). then after some time( in the month of December only ) I started liking her , at first she seemed very normal and boring to me but when I started talking to her , like asking personal questions, I was very impressed by the way her thought processing worked.

we started to talk very much after january in call and irl , though I was in doubt that she also liked me or not.

I'll tell you an incident,

we were in a group , where I was giving my one female friend a ticket of discount for some game in a mall , and in little flirty way ( 😭 -im sory , I wanted to see her reaction) , she acted very weird , I was freaked out because it was very surprising for me , she just putted her hand aggressively when she was taking that ticket from me.

it was a clear sign of jealousy ( though I don't know I need opinion on this one , as I'm using logic only 🤧) also in the whole month of February we were together because of college fests.

there was movie night in our college and she suddenly told me that she needs a long term relationship, i had some late emis and because of that I was very messed up in Feb , so I told her that relationships are a waste of time ( maybe it hurt her ), also whenever I asked that what is your type in men , she always told me that she has no type.

here comes a new plot twist , my one in the photography club also liked her he is an ISTJ,

he used to be my very good friend, so I just tried to suppress my feelings for her , but soon she rejected him, saying that she didn't want a relationship, but she told me that she wants a long term relationship , I was very confused.

after that I stopped suppressing myself,

I asked her for a videowalk together ( I make crazy videos and post them on Instagram like cinematography, she was very interested in that ) , she was very excited for it and but somehow it was cancelled.

after that there was a photowalk of whole club , in which we were together , she gave me a sunflower and after the photowalk with club we gone out together exploring the city at night, and I live in my college dorms, so I booked a cab ( she had a vehicle but she didn't had time , calls coming from her dad to return home ) so she waited until my cab comes ( I told her to not worry and go ) it was very cute of her. ( plus she used to tell very personal things sometimes too )

for some days I wasn't able to text her , after that she started to distance , when I tried contacting her back she used to reply very dry and never initiated anything since then , also she denies to my every plan. idk why , it started to affect me ( I too feel things sometimes) , I let it happen, I gave her space.

as of now we talk but very lightly( situation is kinda same ). it kinda hurts but I still like her.

I need some advice on what can I do ? , i highly want to confess to her ?

but my RSD( rejection sensitivity dysmorphia)don't let me. ( I have adhd ).

fellow infps PLEASE tell me what to do.