Um I just apologised to my friend idk it's complicated
so basically there was this friend I had in 10th grade. We'd been friends since like third grade? And we got close after the lockdown. She was basically my best friend since all my other friends moved away. She was a great friend but I always knew that I wasn't her best friend. She was really social so she was friends with everyone, but I was always really nervous with social interactions so I wasn't the same way. She used to always abandon our conversations to talk to other people (which I get, you can't just ignore when people talk to you, but at least keep it short?). But anyways, eventually told me she was moving away for a levels. I was definitely devastated and tried to hang out with her a bunch before she left, but she was super popular, so she couldn't hang out with me as much.
Ok fast forward to half a year later, she's moved away, we're still in touch and she surprises me by coming back. She isn't my best friend anymore but we're pretty good friends still. And we start talking so I ask her have you kept in touch with everyone (yk since she's friends with literally everyone). And she admits that she's still friends with a girl that bullied both me and her, since she 'doesn't want to deal with all the drama'. and that bully she was still friends with talked shit about everyone in our class, even her own boyfriend. So I was MAD. I decided to stop talking to her after she went back (but I didn't communicate the problem to her so I was being immature). So I stopped calling her first and decided to answer whenever she called. But then she didn't call first, so we didn't talk for like a year.
Ok so after a year she texts me about University and where I'm gonna go. So I answer her but also I'm immediately filled with guilt for avoiding her and not talking to her. I really missed her since she was basically the first friend I had. So I apologized for not talking to her and being immature and she was like that's ok let's talk in a month. (Since we were both busy). And basically I feel like a desperate ex. I feel like the way I'm taking about this, I'm making myself seem better than I actually am, but I know I was definitely a large part of messing up that friendship. Anyways tips on how to talk to her when we talk next month???