I have struggled with mental health all my life - I’m a 30yo female. I have been diagnosed with anxiety depression and ptsd over the years and have been on and off medication
Lately on my days off work I’ve really struggled to be alone
I will stay in bed for ages and then when I get up I get overwhelmed. I don’t have an appetite, if the sink is full of dishes I avoid the kitchen all together and go back to bed.
I feel too comfortable to get out of my pajamas.
I just end up having “episodes” of crying - feeling like shit. Going back to bed. Sometimes I’ll be so angry at myself that I’ll hit my head or my legs out of frustration
I’m looking into whether I have autism or not also because although I’ve always felt like these are episodes in depression I’m starting to learn more about meltdowns and wonder if that is what this is.
But I’m tired, I’m sick of doing this over and over again.
I feel better when I’m with my partner or my family, or at work once I get into the routine I feel distracted. But at home I feel miserable and exhausted.
I don’t know what I’m hoping to get in response to this :-(
I just feel so hopeless and alone