u/Character-Laugh-6860

I really really hate how I look. It’s so hard because I don’t think I’m necessarily fully ugly in the face. But I have such bad acne, my face is completely lopsided, in pictures I look horrible. I despise my body, I’m built like an upside down triangle. My upper arms are huge while I have no hips or butt. And my hair is completely unmanageable. It’s not straight, or curly, wavy in the front while my under layer is straighter. It’s thin and easily oily. I can’t curly style it, I can’t just do no product bc it’ll frizz, And all products weigh it down. It doesn’t even just dry straight if I don’t touch it. Just frizzes up. It was my 18th birthday the other day and I was at Universal with my family, as soon as I saw myself in a mirror my mood was ruined. My self image controls my life, and I feel such a constant urge to announce to the world that I know I’m ugly. I know I constantly look like a mess, and I hate doing my makeup and even trying anymore because I don’t want people to think that I think I’m pretty, I know I’m not. I get embarrassed that people might think that i think im pretty. I feel like I have a moral obligation to acknowledge I’m lesser than others. My two best friends are gorgeous, they have no skin issues, and are both easily pretty. I don’t even look like a girl if my eyelashes dont have mascara on them. I just don’t know what to do anymore.