u/Character-Nature-551

I (22F) am part of a small campus ministry — like 30 people, everyone knows everyone. I had sex with a guy from the ministry. He's not someone I'd actually date, but we were friends and he was affectionate and told me he liked me and I gave him a chance and we eventually had sex. Months after we had sex its now coming out in church

He bragged about it to one of our friends. While also bragging about sleeping with other girls. I found out through my friend. And now everyone knows.

Now my friends won't talk to me. They used to come get me for church, now they don't even text. It feels like I'm being treated like I AM my sin, not a person who sinned. What's crazy is a lot of these same friends struggle with lust too, so the judgment feels hypocritical.

I had a meeting with our pastor (he's also young) and he wanted details about what happened. I told him honestly and he got up and walked away mid-conversation. I do understand the disappointment but i feel more judged than anything.

I've been feeling disgusting and have been scrubbing my skin raw whenever i shower because I feel so dirty. I dont even know why i did it. I feel alone and like maybe I should just accept I'm going to hell.

Edit: It’s so many comments so I’ll edit it here, i‘m not a bot the post is REAL, I only deleted my previous posts because I have so much going on in my life and I only come to Reddit to vent, my previous post were about friendship and family issues and subjects like SA and religious questions. I think if I came here just telling the worst things and I’m telling about SA and family issues and stuff without deleting it then it seem fake and now this it seemed like I’m just making stuff up but I’m not. Also I have ss of every post I’ve made if ppl think I’m lying or making up anything and I have proof this is actually real. Regarding to the guy i think if I said what happened to him then people would think I’m lying more but he’s still in church and ppl talk to him still.

My pastor made a comment that mental illnesses are demonic and that they are caused by evil spirits. (He’s also a doctor if that matters?) but I’m just not understanding how. Thoughts?

I like a guy that goes to my church but I‘m not sure if he likes me or if maybe he’s just being friendly. I‘ve only been approached by worldly men and I’m not sure how to discern between when a godly man is pursuing me versus being a brother in Christ. I do believe in a guy leading so I’ve just been observing and I’m still not sure.

Im currently in a church, I've been here a little bit less than a year, however I feel very lonely in church. For context, I first met the guy who brought me to church at college. He walked up to me,introduced himself, and invited me to join an on-campus ministry. While im forever grateful to him for inviting me, i feel like he left me hanging after. He never introduced me to everyone or made sure i came after or bothered to actually be my friend in the beginning, he just invited me. Despite this, i did feel very welcomed by others in the beginning and i even made a few friends ,at first at least. I became very close in particular with two other girls (im also a girl and they are both bestfriends) and we were friends for a few months maybe 3 and one day one girl offended me, we were having a conversation about me inviting my sister who is 11 to church and she told me i should because if not she's going to hell and started telling me about how my sister has lied before and other sins she has committed and at that point she had never met her. In no way am i claiming that my sister is so holy but i feel like it was too much and that she would try to judge and condemn everyone rather than speaking the truth in love even when we would go out and tell other people about God, i feel like she would focus more on people's sins rather than teaching about the love of God i just feel like it was too intense to say?(i would like to hear thoughts on if i was wrong) but we stopped speaking for a while due to this and eventually stopped being friends (with both, since the other girl is her bestfriend she also stopped talking to me). The ministry is also maybe like 15 people because its newly made and its mostly guys but there are girls, however i feel like when i try to get close to them they seem not to be friendly and the guys all hang out together mostly and we're told not to really hang out with the guys alone unless its a large group to prevent lustful things i suppose. The guys in church are very kind though but I just would like advice on how to be friends with the other girls? Sometimes i feel like they arent bothered to be my friend because im less spiritual than them, with me joining less than a year ago. I do try to recommend ways the girls can come together to hang out but no one ever wants to do anything..

Recently I’ve gotten an email that I didn’t meet the SAP policy. In the fall I failed 2 classes and ended up being placed on academic alert, honestly I had a very hard time adjusting to college in the fall. However,in the spring semester I tried harder to do well in my classes but I ended up failing English. Based on the appeal policy I have to give certain reasons on why I failed my class this past spring semester however honestly I’m not sure what to say considering there were multiple reasons why I didn’t but I’m not sure if they’ll see them as valid excuses. I ended up notifing my instructor that I’d be out of class for like a week and ended up missing a major writing assignment that he didn’t allow me to make up. Based on his policy if you miss a major writing assignment you are subjected to fail due to how the assignments are weighed. I do take full responsibility for not being present in his class but after I couldn’t make up the assignment I honestly got very discouraged and stopped trying as hard cause I felt like I had already failed and even after I would try to do other assignments I felt like he had this opinion of me that I wasn’t serious about his work because of missing it.I’m not sure what to do. Advice?