u/CharacterIsopod9070

10th 92 percentage I wanted to take commerce but parents ki vajah se science leli , joined an integrated coaching jismein har dusre mahine Teachers badalte the because of which I got 65 percentage in HSC board and 80 percentile in MHTCET

Took drop gave jee literally got a trash percentile HSC improvement got 68 percentage,cet 1st attempt se koi hope's nahi hai , cet 2nd attempt mein cut-off kaafi badh jaayega so idk what will happen in that

In drop year I got depressed, I was physically abused in my childhood ( literally had a knife pointed at my face once) and I kept thinking about that , and my parents constant fights and about their divorce,I feel like I'm the reason for their bad life ,I used to get nightmares have sleep paralysis. I dec I got to know I have PCOS ,3 of my close friends cutoff their contact with me.i really felt lonely

Should I take a double drop ,? I would join a library and study there all day and would live with my mom only , ik most theory for JEE I need much question practice,NIOS de dungi for 75 criteria.

Should I take double drop, I really want want to get a college which is not in my homestate ?

Any help and advice would be appreciated!!