u/ChargeCandid

Has anyone else seen or heard the video of Howie Mandel's recent podcast in which he describes getting "$25 tuggies" (his words, not mine) in front of his adult daughter? Then when the other girl asks if this is cheating on his wife of 48 FREAKING YEARS, and his daughter asks if Mom would be upset, he says, "you can call her."

As a millennial, I grew up watching Bobby's World and movies like Little Monsters, I liked Howie. The older I get the less faith I have in men. I feel like they're all scum, some just hide it longer than others. As silly as it sounds, I've been in a state of hopelessness ever since. I feel dumb for ever even believing in real love.

Has anyone else reached a point they feel their relationship is irreparable? Not bc you think thy are still watching and lying, but because they did that for so long, it made it crystal clear he'd rather watch porn than sleep with me.

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I thought long and hard about the future and asked myself if I would even feel any better if I could somehow prove he'd never watch it again... and the answer is no, because I'd still know that's what he WANTS to do? I will always know I'm not what he really wants. I feel like a shitty consolation prize.