My unfortunate story
My unfortunate story
Hi everyone, I wanted to tell my story here once and for all so that I can finally get this of my chest.
So at 23, I am still a kissless virgin, that only gets his intimacy through movies and art. I know a lot of people think deep down “HAHA, what a loser or incel” but I swear I can explain this further. While I tried my best to emulate the successful people I knew, I am also blessed with the amazing traits of undiagnosed autism, mild IBS bloating(no matter how much I train I will always have a bloated belly) and a stutter. This combined with a face that “only a mother could love” has really ruined my chances immensely on the small island I live on. I tried going to the doctor for all of these but to no avail.
And not for a lack of trying. I try my best to read social cues and come over well but people still recognize the autism and weirdness and ignore me or make me seem like I am invisible. They often say it’s bcs women get guarded with weird people for safety reasons, even though ironically enough all the toxic guys I knew were master manipulators that pass as charming(and this not on some incel shit, but I feel like we have to be honest)
I don’t want pity or anything of that sort. I am asking what else to do, I believe in stoicism and all that but a certain point it’s like” Damn, do people really judge me that bad for shit I can’t control?”