u/CharlieEternal616

I can't believe she did it! My god, I just watched Mayhem: Requiem on AppleTV and oh my God my gurl Gaga absolutely BODIED LoveDrug 😭😭😭 urgh guys you don't understand, this song is so special to me, it's my favorite song on the album, and I relate to the lyrics so strong like she's literally singing about my personal life and personal experiences lol 😆 I love the show so much, her performance is spectacular across the board, but LoveDrug in particular was an absolute highlight for me I actually cried by the end of that performance 😭 if there's anyone here who loves LoveDrug I hope you're all as impressed and satisfied as I am with the performance of our favorite song! 😭

Good morning, everyone, so I need a bit of advice about something. It's actually really silly, and I'm probably just overthinking, but I just wanna get people's opinions.

So I'm a gay man with a timid/introverted personality, living in a coloured community in Durban, grew up here and everything, so it's my hometown. But I've always sort of been an outcast here; my interests, my taste in music, the way I speak, etc, are all very different from how most people are here. Anyway, people in this place all listen to very specific music, it's either: gqom/house/amapiano, hip hop or old school R&B, that's it! That's the full range of music you'll ever hear in this place. Now me I listen to artists like P!nk, Adele, Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift, Lana Del Rey, etc, basically pop divas lol. And I get called "weird" or "acting white" quite often, but that's not the main issue...

So I live in a flat, and right behind my flat is another where a group of young guys sit on the corner and sell drugs. These are your typical rough, fresh outta prison, listening to angry hip hop/drill music all day type of dudes. Now the distance between my bedroom and their corner is so small that I can hear almost every conversation they have when I'm in my room, and they can hear me too. So when I play my music, they can hear it, and I sometimes hear them complaining, mocking my music, mocking me, and laughing, and it just makes me feel so uncomfortable coz it sounds like they're right outside my window judging me loudly. Sometimes I hear them say things like: "this fucken moffie" (moffie is a derogatory term for gay men in coloured communities) and just last night while listening to Lana, I heard a guy say: "this fucken puss ekse" so clearly my music is having a negative effect on them. Sometimes, I look out through the curtains and see them either moving to the side or putting on headphones as if my music is a virus they're trying to avoid.

So I'm just feeling very uncomfortable to even play my music anymore, I usually close my window to try trap the sound and keep it at a decent volume - but I think they can still hear it abit. And although they're being harsh, I kinda feel just a bit guilty because I understand their perspective. These guys are living a rough life, doing a dangerous job, listening to music that probably helps them maintain the mindset needed for that lifestyle - then all of a sudden, here comes this soft girly music lol which is probably very jarring for them so I get it. Especially coming from a gay dude, they probably hate that, too.

So what do you guys think I should do? I really do sometimes feel bad because I know I'm killing their vibe, but I also hate having to hear them talk about me like that. I feel so exposed like I have no privacy, it's to a point where I'm even thinking of asking my mother to switch bedrooms with me so I'll be a bigger distance away from them, I feel like that's my only solution. Either that or I just ignore them and hope I don't piss them off and have them resent me. And it's not a safety thing like I know they won't hurt me in any way, but just knowing that my presence breeds hatred makes me nervous, you know? I just really don't belong in this place.

So yeah, what do you guys think?