u/CharmedOne93

Are there any starseeds from Alantis in a past life? Cause I dream of Alantis all the time like its own world. The tech seemed more advanced for the time period. No I dont mean like tv and cars advanced but like herbal medicine advanced.. more knowledgeable in certain areas than most would be. When I have those dreams it feels so flipping real.

I feel there more to all this there different parts of me I cant put together and I dont know how. People say past life regression can help. Sure it could but my mind can not stop racing thoughts long enough for my mind to clear long enough..I swear it almost like a Nascar race in my head most days.

I have posted a couple times and both times I cant find them and no one comments on them so I am wondering if they went through or not..And if they did why is no one commenting like they do other post am I that boring or something?

My friend who a boomer is a romantic catholic like i used to be how I grew up was based on that. I believe in everything the holy book said until I was 15 and something told me something was wrong that I was not fulfilling my destiny by being a sheep in a religious flock. To find out who I was meant to be I had back away from all the trauma I faced there. Well this friend more my mom than anyone can understand this woman came into my life when I was most vulnerable i was alone scared. I was an outsider i didnt see things the way my classmates did it scared them that I wasnt following religion as it seems to be norm of society. Well me leaving the church she resented me for it for a while but it seems she starting to see I am still the girl back then but I feel happier in my life now. Recently she been sending me all sorts of crystals and I am starting think she finally accepting the fact I cant be who I was back then. It never felt right to me.

Fast forward a few years up to when I found my spiritual calling so about 2019/2020 I found my way to finding other starseeds. At first I believe I was just going crazy like I was lying to myself to make myself think I fit in but something brought me to this path for a reason. Yes I believe in divine intervention just nor in the same way my classmates and family had.

I came into my identity of sorts the new me. I was finally feeling and finally believe I found my place.

I still dont know what my "destiny" is but I know i am on right path to knowing.

I almost cried when I seen the black onyx in my present she had sent me. Because in that moment I grabbed it. I know it sounds stupid but I felt a rush of energy. I thought I was in a sci-fi movie for a moment it felt so real.

The point is that little girl who was unloved abused and neglected. Finally grew up to find her place in the world and while I have 0 contact with most my biological relatives it fine by me cause they are toxic af. I found someone who through everything took me under her wing. Been protecting me even from a distance she treats me like her daugther even though I am not. My birth mom wasnt ready to be a mother my father died May 16 1994 and 11 days after May 27 1994 was my 1st bday. My birth mom went down hill. I was in foster care for a good while. She spent so many years trying to find me a "father figure " but in all that she was missing the point I needed my mom too but she always made it about men. So when this friend took me under her wing that way it been the best feeling I have ever felt to actuallt have the mom figure I needed in my life. My birth mom a good grandmother to my kids but she was in her 20s when she had me and I just dont believe could handle it all by herself as a single parent. It not like she prepared to become a widow..so that had a last impact on her for sure 32 yrs later it still does impact her.

I turn 33 in couple weeks with 2 sons of my own ages 8 and 5.

But yesterday I felt the most loved than I ever knew before.