Does this sound like a kundalini awakening?
I'm not sure if what I'm experiencing is kundalini or maybe some other spiritual awakening. I had major ups and downs the last few years and meditated a lot (bliss states followed by really dark and frightening lows), but lately I'm just going into spontaneous samadhi, sometimes aware but sometimes not, lots and lots of buzzing, extreme heat and feeling intense energy at night. I've stopped meditating altogether because it's way too strong but the samadhi just keep happening anyway. The vibrating and shaking can get pretty intense and make me not sleep at all but I've actually found skullcap estremely helpful. A bit during the day and a strong skullcap tea at night evens things out.
Other than slow walks I really cant do anything physical or it breaks my nervous system and that gets really bad (I learned the hard way). I tried going back to the gym, had a moderate workout and then violently shook for over a week with 2 hours of rough sleep a night. So not doing that again for a while...
I honestly dont know if this is kundalini (if so probably one of the gentler ones I've read about) but the only thing I felt along the spine was years ago (just remembered when listening to someone else describe their experience) when I was quite involved spiritually, my lower back gave out and I fell to the floor. I should have been scared because I couldnt move and to try to move was excruciating, but honestly in the moment as long as I was just laying there I actually felt so nice that I just wasnt worried at all. Maybe that was my initial kundalini awakening that started all of this?
I don't really feel anything in my spine which is what has me wondering. I do feel my forehead and feet simultaneously activated and its like with a channel running between them. Almost all of the other symptoms (buzzing, head pressure, ears ringing and clogging up, feeling like I'm going really high in my head, spontaneous samadhi, derealization) I read about are there though. As long as I dont overdo it it's pretty easy to allow the head pressure into my body and that eases it up. I always joke that I never knew a spiritual awakening would involve this much sitting around on the couch lol
I just posted some of this as a response to another poster but then realized I'd actually like to fill it out a bit to know if folks with experience can deduce what exactly this is?