How can my relationship with my GF [24F] get better ? [25M]
My gf an I (M) are both in our 20s. We've been together for more than a year. From the start she made clear there would be no sex for at least a while. She said she had trouble talking about it. I assumed she had traumas related to that and I accepted it. I've never seen her naked or even in underwear. We still have physical touch and make outs tho. A few months after the start of the relationship, we started having more heated makeout sessions where she basically used me to have orgasms. It's fully clothed and I kiss her and touch her boobs or thighs but nothing more. She touches my back or arms and kisses me. But the sexual perspective stops there for me. During our relationship she mentioned she's had sex with her exes and she mentions sexual attraction towards women too. She's Bisexual so it's not a surprise. But she never mentions sexual attraction towards me. She made clear that she had an issue with men's body. But she can't talk about the topic because it makes her cringe. I started questioning myself because we still have our heated moments and she mentions sex sometimes. I'm okay with no sex at all but I fear I'm being used. She's really hot and I love her so having those moments with her is almost torture. I'm torn between keeping satisfying her and stopping because I still want her to feel good. I'm also afraid I'm an asshole and not respecting her boundaries for expecting reciprocation but I don't know if it's wrong to feel that way. And I don't know if I'm wrong to expect things to evolve
tldr: my gf and I don't have proper sex but she uses me for her pleasure