TLDR (but you had better read the full story please) 8 years ago, when we were 16, my first love and I dated for 6 months, we broke up because my family didn't approve. I continued talking to him secretly, but my family caught me and beat me. I told him my family beat me. Then he lied to me about cheating on me. 4 years later, he texted to me and told me the truth, but he was depressed and I was afraid of my family. I don't want him to be sad because of me again. I lied to him that I had a boyfriend. 4 years later, I texted him. I told him I had no boyfriend at that time. We started to talk again. He remembered every detail about me down to the smallest ones, he said he looked for me in everywhere. He said he still had feelings for me. But when I told him I wanted to start a relationship with him again, it turned out he already had a girlfriend. I blocked him, did the right thing, but now I'm very sad.
Full story:
I am a 24-year-old woman. 8 years ago, when I was 16, I had a boyfriend who was the same age. We were each other's first love. We dated for 6 months, and we broke up because my family opposed the relationship. My family was very angry with him. But I kept talking him secretly. Then my family beat me up for that reason. I told him my family did this because I kept talking with him. He lied about he cheated on me with his cousin (that was a ridiculous lie) We experienced a sad broke up. Four years later, he texted to me. I rejected him out of fear of my family. I even said I had a boyfriend because I felt sorry for him. This was a lie. I wanted him to forget about me and move on with his life. Because at that time, he was depressed. I always wondered about him, but I couldn't ask. Four years later, finally I seperated from my family and got a job. While talking to my friends about our first loves, he came to my mind, and I texted him, "How are you?" I did not have any expectations because it had been years. I just wanted to see him happy and healthy. He replied to my message right away. He said he moved to America. He said he was looking for me everywhere. He showed me people he had texted, thinking it was me, until only a three months ago. He even asked to my account that I no longer use, whether I had finished university. He said he wanted to talk with me again. I had no intention of getting back together with him until he said this. We started talking. We talked on the phone for 3-4 hours a day, flirting like we used to. We talked about our memories. I told him that I had actually lied about not having a boyfriend four years ago, just because I wanted him to be happy. He said no worries. He reminded my teen years. He remembered everything about me, even the smallest details. I don't remember many things about him because it had been 8 years. It made me so happy that he still remembers. After talking for 1 week, I wanted to finish a unfinished story. He didn't give me any clarity, so I said it couldn't be like this. He told me three days before I texted to him, he had started a relationship with a girl. He showed me the girl. I told him you should have told me. He said "talking about the past with you made me happy, my memories with you are very special to me, I didn't want to ruin that, that's why I couldn't tell you." He was saying we shouldn't stop talking even driving to his girlfriend's place. He said it was "friendly" talk between he and me. He denied about our flirtation. I told him that he was cheating on her with me and blocked him. This was a really difficult decision for me and it still hurts because I still have feelings for him, but I think I did the right thing. I cannot be the side chick nor be the woman who causes cheating. However, I don't know how to get over it.