Feeling of being left out and emotionally paralysed in a relationship
This is my first time making a Reddit post in general and I wanted to ask a question that's been bugging me for the most few week. I've been in a relationship with a girl for about 9 months now, from the start we've been open about Polyamory and how we want to try it and so far it's been good up until the last few weeks.
I had an accident and had to do a surgery in my clavicle bone. Right now she is in another town about 1.5 hours away by car and for the past 1 month and 2 weeks she hasn't made any movement to come and see me, see says that she is being busy with work (she works 4 hours everyday as a waitress) and she is being trying to gather money cause she will go in an Erasmus University Program to Portugal at the start of September for 5 months.
I've been all alone for the past month in my home cause all of my friends are on a vacation or working (rn I'm unable to work) and I was just texting her to see how things are going and in general cause she was the only one that I was thinking about when I was all by my self in my house. I was just texting her like "Hey I miss you, when are you coming back to the city so we can hangout?" "I want us to make the most of it before you leave for the Erasmus Program".
She told me through the phone that I've been pressuring her that I'm not the only person in her life and that I'm manipulative for saying to her everyday that I can't wait to see her again.
I also need to ad up that rn where she is staying she is staying with a new partner of hers and I get the excitement I'm happy for her but I also feel left out and emotionally paralysed from the fact that she is not making any room on her schedule to come and see me.
I can also provide further info if you want so that we can untangle the situation because I'm feeling very stressed and saddened by the fact that see didn't make any moves to come and see me.