u/Cheap-Ad-4865

I (31F) am for sure a problem gambler I’ve not spent my life's savings or double mortgaged my house but I struggle to walk away and find myself on a road that keeps escalating towards larger bets, chasing larger wins that won’t come. the most I’ve spent in a week on gambling out of pocket is around $300 (I know it’s not that much why am I complaining). I'm trying to quietly close this chapter of my life, I’m closing my accounts (as they unlock from cool-offs), I’m abstaining from the going to the physical casinos near me, I won’t even look at skill games or scratch offs but I still feel like I’m falling short. I close out my apps and one unlocks and I play maybe $30 before closing the account and I know it wont ruin my life but just doing it feels like I’m failing myself. I’m trying to keep it off my mind and go about my life but it’s everywhere you turn there’s ads, the apps are even sponsoring sports now. I try to talk to my partner for support but he doesn’t understand and he judges me for backsliding even an inch. Ive installed and use the blockers.And yet I still find ways to sabotage myself with little slips here and there. I don’t know if I just need support or advice but I really don’t know how I’m supposed to move forward.