Asking for advice (29M)
(29M) here originally from KY, moved to Michigan 2 years ago for my ex. Long story shortened things didn’t last, fell apart substantially about 8 months ago. Since the economy has started crumbling it essentially destroyed my bridge to be able to return home to KY between no availability for jobs what so ever, and the housing market increasing so much I’m unable to afford to move in any manner. My family is less then what you’d call supportive so they aren’t able to lend any advice or assistance, (not that I expected it) but my parents have a 3 bedroom home and it’s only them living there. Part of me wishes they’d offer a bed room to me (I’m willing to pay them rent) but they won’t accept the idea due to me being a homosexual and they don’t want me living in their house with them because they don’t agree with it and that’s fine. They can have whatever opinions they want, they’re allowed too.
My issue is my current living situation is living with my ex, the house is small, crowded, he has 4 dogs (I have two small dachshunds). His 4 dogs are not potty trained at all, yet both of mine are. I’ve been working 10/11 hour days m-f just to pay my core bills. Nothing extra no savings, making 23.25 an hour. My day consists of coming home, spending my entire day/evening cleaning up after his pets it feels gross to me living in these conditions but if I don’t keep cleaning he will let the house become a disgusting pit. So I have no choice to maintain my cleaning efforts or live in absolute filth. Also. Gas currently in our area is 5.59 a gallon, I drive an older suv that’s paid off and gets less then great gas mileage, I’m currently spending almost 30 dollars a day alone in fuel. I’ve had 6 people hit me and run in the last 6 months alone, I have no friends up here what so ever. My only connections I truly have are my two dachshunds and I’m eternally thankful for them. My job also isn’t helping much, I treat yards with pesticides, fertilizers and other products, most of our clients are EXTREMELY wealthy people and they talk to you like your sub human on a regular basis, last week I had two older rich people try to have me trespassed during their scheduled appointments because the pesticides aren’t killing weeds quick enough so they’d have me continue servicing their lawns as they stormed off and within ~ 10 minutes before I returned to my van I had the police waiting on me and questioning me. Nothing comes of that but it makes you quite miserable when rich old people get the green light to treat you like human garbage because they had 2 dandelions on 3 acres of property and they’re so displeased they call law enforcement. (Crazy entitlement right?) all while I’m working as much as I’m able to hopefully dig myself out of a hole and save some money to return home, only to be making 0% progress due to the economy. On top of this I have credit cards that I’m making payments on, along with rent, utilities, and car insurance I’m lucky to make it to my following paycheck with 30 bucks to spare. I appreciate my ex atleast giving me a place to live and exist. But the other half of that is I’m beyond miserable in every manner. Life is essentially work, cleaning up his dogs messes, sleep, pay bills, repeat. My mental health is the lowest it’s ever been in my entire life. I genuinely find it hard to even fake a smile. I feel no joy in life any longer except with my 2 dogs.
Please any advice, or tips would be amazing. Thank you.