u/Cheap-Writing9117

I relapsed today and I don't feel bad about it but not feeling bad about it has made me feel bad. Is it okay to not feel bad about it? I do want to have a healthier relationship with sex and I'm taking measures to make sure I do healthier methods which I was able to do this time. Is it okay if I don't want to give it up completely? I'm still aware I have a problem and that I need to get help for it but does that automatically make me have to stop completely? I don't want to get worse but it feels impossible stopping completely

Any advice is welcome ^^

24 hours ago I decided to quit masturbating because its started becoming painful after how often I do it but I don't know how much longer I can take this. I'm on my period and it's making it so much harder to continue. I've tried sleeping as much as I can so I'm not awake and thinking about it but now I've started dreaming about it too so theres no escape there. I'm running out of things to distract myself with because it feels like every movie or TV show i'm reminded of it and every hobby somehow ties back to it. I've been trying to draw and play games to not think about it but the longer I go the less it works. It's all I can think about. I do have a few friends I can talk to but only one knows about my problem and I feel weird talking about it to them even though they understand. I wish I could just stop because it hurts but the longer I go without it the more I want it.

I don't know what to do or how to keep distracting myself. I want to stop so bad but I don't know how much longer I can take this. Does anyone have any advice for someone who's just starting to quit? I downloaded the "I Am Sober" app and it helps a little but not enough to stop me from wanting it.

edit: thanks for all the advice!! I made it to 48 hours and ongoing ^^ im confident I will be okay now!