Am i actually as ugly as i think i am?
I see myself in the mirror and think, ‘oh, i look cute today” maybe on good days im a 8.5/10 and normal days, a 6/10. But then i see a photo or picture of me and i think ‘damn, im fucking ugly’. on good days i MIGHT be a 4/10. i just look so fucking asymmetrical.
I’ve been so insecure about it. I feel so ugly, and in a world of beautiful people, where looks are everything, I feel pointless. My friends and family have said I’m pretty, but I feel like they’re obligated to say it because they don’t want to hurt me. I’ve tried to look for the asymmetry in the mirrors and I just don’t see it. I feel like I’ll never find a boyfriend or husband. I’ve heard of the mere exposure effect and stuff, but I just feel so ugly, and I feel like how I look in photos is how I look to everyone.
I think part of it is that I’ve been rejected once, and it really messed me up. But I just struggle to feel pretty.