Is it wrong for me to be selfish and enjoy life as normal people in my country?
I know this has been asked probably a million times. But it is always nice to hear other people's opinions.
I am 20F, currently in my last year of university, maybe soon to be PharmB. I was an academically gifted child, always got the best scores in class, winning academic related competition here and there. But I never enjoyed that life, I love the praise, but doing everything burned me out. I felt tired, worthless, and nothing like myself. I love art, even though i'm not the best at it.
But people put expectations on me. People around me always say i'm destined for better things, to fix our family's poverty, to be better than my parents, to be "someone successful". It is frustrating. My family and my friends looked at me as if I grew a second head when I said I just want to live a normal life, money enough but not too little, get married, have kids, do my hobby. They call me selfish when I said I want to stay in my country (a developing country), because I think our family never have the safety net if I failed abroad, I feel like I'd just be homeless.
Am I wrong? Should I listen to them and move abroad, taking the risk to study abroad?
I'm really sorry if this sounds like a rambling, I just need to hear other people's opinion.