So far have been very unlucky in love. Lessons after lessons only no proper relationship. Parents are looking for prospects for AM as well but haven’t seen much luck there either. Not sure if I’ll even get married.
There is faint ringing in my left ear sometimes at random out of nowhere and my left eye has been twitching nonstop for almost a month. In my culture it is considered auspicious but idk. What could it possibly be?
Hi I’m 30F and my friend 29F have been friends for almost a decade and I have seen her life closely. She always gets what she wants, idk she’s just lucky in that way. She has an amazing long term partner and this was her second relationship. First one was with one of our other friend’s ex, it was a cheating situation. She got back with that friend too. We’ve worked at two jobs together and bosses are always nice to her in fact they are more like her mentor/friend while I’ve always struggled with authority figures, they’ve bullied me. I work hard and even she says I do but I never got as much recognition for my work. I quit my job back in November because of continuous issues with my superior, and have been jobless since. She recently quit the same job and another one is already being offered to her from a company she didn’t even apply to.
She just always gets everything, so easily. She has a boyfriend who literally showers her with love, gifts and flowers and what not. Her relationship is literally perfect, I hangout with them all the time and all our friend group agrees he’s the best boyfriend ever, I can’t even get a guy to want anything more than a hookup. Her parents are super chill. She goes on trips all the time while mine are too strict and I always have to fight at home just to even step out for an evening.
I’ve started resenting her for always having it so easy, always being just “lucky” and absolutely every single aspect of her life. I am happy to have her as a friend and I know it’s not a good thing to be envious of our own friends, I try to deal with these feelings by being grateful for what I have but I just can’t help but compare my life with hers. Idk what to do.
I feel really bad admitting it but lately I’ve started feeling like I would for once feel better if something even slightly difficult happens so I can finally feel like life’s somewhat fair. I can’t share any of this stuff with anybody, so I just thought might as well post here.