I (25F) am in a long-term relationship (27M), and am thinking of leaving my life behind to start a new one completely fresh. How can I start my life over single?
I (25F) have been dating my boyfriend (27M) for several years now, but recently I haven't been feeling fulfilled in my current life. We fell on financial hardship and could no longer afford our home, so we moved in with my parents and have been living here for a few years now. It was our goal while living here that we save our money so that we can get a place together again. He has not been interested in setting any money aside for our future and blows through his paychecks every week. He does not care about being responsible despite almost being 30. He does not care about having a career and only looks for part-time/seasonal jobs that don't pay very well or have any benefits. He acts like staying home, not doing anything, and not spending any money is the end of the world. He lives like a slob. His lack of responsibility has made me unattracted to him. I am horrifically depressed and am so unhappy with the way my life has gone. I am so broke from being the responsible one keeping us both afloat. For a long time now, I have been thinking about cutting everyone off in my life, ending my relationship, going radio silent on all social media, and moving far away to start a new life. This seems like an impossible fantasy, but with every day of living like this, the more I am looking into different jobs in different states and looking at cheap listings on Zillow. I really do love my partner, and he otherwise treats me well and he truly does love me, but I can't help but feel like I could/should be doing so much more with my life. I have no idea how I would even go about breaking up with him, uprooting my life from a town I've lived in my whole life, and being a single person on my own. I just don't know what I should do. Has anyone else thought about this or successfully started anew? Advise? I'm feeling really lost.
TL;DR: Unhappy with current life/relationship, how should I start a new life somewhere else?