What am I doing wrong here?
I have been an NP for a year and a half. The first job I had was at a clinic where I did my student clinicals. It was a small private clinic, they began to have serious financial problems, they failed to make payroll (for everyone) for two months straight, I left, they closed down shortly thereafter. I got another job at a large VBC company. That clinic insisted that providers see upwards of 30 patients daily. Almost all of these were multi-morbid, very complex patients. Providers rarely left the clinic before 8pm and very few slept more than 3-4 hours at a time. I left that job after finding out about some illegal activities there. A large telehealth company “hired” me, we signed a contract last January. Since then, I have been stuck in “insurance credentialing”. At this point, it seems they have just ghosted me. I am trying to scrape by doing asynchnous telehealth. It pays very, very little. I have applied to every job that I might possibly be eligible for in a 70 mile radius. (I cannot relocate at this time.) So far, nothing. I don’t mean to sound naive, and I am not looking for sympathy. I am genuinely confused. Is the job market this rough for everyone? Have I had a run of bad luck? Am I an idiot? Am I just supposed to give up now? I honestly do not know. This situation has been so depressing that I am having trouble seeing this objectively. I appreciate any insight.