Euthanizing at the beginning of untreatable suffering
I feel physically ill. I have an appointment later on today to put my baby to sleep
She’s a 13 year old pug, she’s my baby, she has been by my side through many life’s challenges, including loss of my husband and mother. She’s my companion and best friend, I can’t imagine life without her
Two years ago, my LadyPug was diagnosed with Degenerative Myelopathy, it’s a progressive, incurable spinal cord disease. The main symptoms are weakness of their hind legs, eventual total paralysis, loss of bowl and bladder control and swallowing and breathing weakness. Despite the disease being painless, my girl’s symptoms, such as loss of bowel and bladder control, mobility issues, and decreased appetite, are worsening rapidly.
I’ve decided to let her go before she really begins to suffer, but I feel physically ill with guilt, it’s like I’m giving up on her. I’m torn, I want to protect her from the inevitable suffering, but she still has life in her, today is a good day for her. I don’t have the mental or emotional capacity to deal with this