Am I unlucky of just a terrible writer?
I know this sounds like a loaded question, but it's something that's been weighing on my mind for nearly 20 years.
I started RPing in 2006. Starting very basic one-liners and stuff. I would RP here and there throughout the college life. But it feels like as time went on, the better I got (at least I felt), being able to connect with other writers was much more difficult than anything else. Borderline impossible until I ended up switching it up and RPing as female characters. Unlike my male characters, I never put much effort into building the character or plotting out possible scenes. Simply saying "open to RP" was more than enough.
Apparently in a lot of fanbases, its taboo for men to RP ad women, but not the other way around. So for the longest of time, it made me feel guilty since that was the only way I could manage to hold someone's attention, even when they are OK writing with men.
I'm not saying RP isn't for male. I see them all the time, and even know several who're still. Nor am I expecting entitlement to anyone's time. But being nearly 40 years old, I feel like RP just simply isn't for me anymore.