Worried my husband might be gay
Okay so I've(29) been with my husband (30) for 8 years and married for 5, we have 2 children (5 &1.5). We met in college and became good friends and after several years we got together. I discovered he had a addiction and it causes a lot of issues but he is now 2 years into not watching or masterbating at all. Now here is the issue, he has never been all that eager to pleasure me. I very much have an oral fixation, if you catch my drift. I've always said that part of what gets me off is that he does. However he rarely initiated four play and tends to want to dive right in. We got a bunch of toys to help but I find its often me sitting there with a vibe trying to get off real quick before we have sex. So for a long time I just though he was a selfish lover. However after a conversation recently I'm starting to rethink. Now in the past he has expressed interest in pegging and said that he has been doing butt play since he was a teen by himself. We tried pegging a couple times (despite my initial disinterest and my personal distaste for butt play in general but I wanted to make him feel good and help him feel safe to explore things) and he definitely liked it but I could tell felt shame around it and always said he didn't want to do it again after. Now in our most recent convo I expressed that I felt undesired and like he didn't want to touch me down there. He flat out admitted that he's never been very interested in vaginas (touching or tasting). He said he likes to have sex and put his dick in but he doesn't like the texture or "stickiness" on the inside. So I'm truly at a loss bc I am extremely sexally frustrated to the point where Now I'm the one watching porn and reading smut and masterbating alone bc nearly every sexual encounter I'm left unsatisfied and having to finish myself off alone after. On top of this I already didn't feel desired by him in a day to day basis so hearing that he doesn't even like my pussy is really disheartening. He isbt romantic, doesnt dp amuthing soecial for birtbdays anniversaries ect. We dont even sleep in ghe same bed bc we cosleep with the kids. The ex i had before him used to be obsessed with eating me and made me quirt first before I even touched him. So idk I just am wondering if I'm crazy for wondering if he's actually gay and just ashamed or if I should just deal with the fact that my husband doesn't like the one part of me guys are supposed to salivate over. I just feel like I'm living with like a roommate that I sometimes have I satisfying sex with.
Tl;dr husband said he doesn't like touching or tasting vaginas and doesn't seem interested in my pleasure and likes when I peg him. Is he gay?