u/Choupette12

That’s my only logical answer. I’ve just destroyed in 2 days what took me 1 year to rebuild.

It took me one session. And then everything went out of control. 36 hours of pure degeneracy until every penny to my name is gone.

I feel empty, numb with very dark ideas. I don’t know why I keep inflicting this to myself. I’m a pretty decent Guy Never hurt anyone. But it seems that deep down I want to destroy myself.

I’m not sure I have the strenght to go through that again. This relapse has been the worst I’ve ever had. I just don’t have the courage to overclme this. I even feel relieved once I lost the last cent of money. Like this is finished I can finally try to be a human again. I knew I would not stop until everything is gone.