HOW DO I TELL THE GUY IM TALKING TO THAT I HAVE SELECTIVE MUTISM
Okay so I 17F went to a fast food joint and saw a cute cashier (I'm black, keep that in mind ) and he smiled at me and was really nice as i got me and my sisters orders. I wrote on my phone the questions I had like " Could I get a cup?" And he was really nice, paitent as i typed but weren't really having casual conversation since you know i wasn't speaking just smiling nervously up at him, anyways I ended up returning to the queue like 6 times for like tissues, to buy more food and stuff. At one point signing "thank you" mouthing it because thats how I was taught to sign and saying nothing felt odd(?)
When my sisters arrived I texted them (they dont know sign) that i'd like to get his number and one was like "He keeps looking over here and your pretty, he won't reject you so just write it in your phone and show him." so as I finally go to leave I spin around and walking up to the till like a woman with a quest from the Greek gods and show him my phone eith the words "Hi , could I get your number?" written. He didn't read my message out loud (THANK GOD) and he said "Sure" and smiled before taking my phone (really respectfully) And typing it in and adding in the smiley emoticon
Heres the real fuckery part though I can't tell if he knows I can't talk most of the time and I kind of assumed he did since everybody always does (idk why) and there was a till seprating us by maybe 2-3 feet and so when I mouth "I'll text you" out of habit
HE LOOKS AT ME CONFUSED
THEN MY LIPS TRYING TO CATVH WHAT IM NOT SAYING
HE THEN RELAXED AND SMILLED like "ahh well"
Embarassed I waved and scampered off
BUT I texted him and he texted me back
GUYS looking back my siblings were also speaking my Swahilli and we were vausing a ruckus (laughing, typing jokes and my siblings would yell back phrases in both languages as we ate) so with this knowledge in mind do you think he knows I have SM? or at least that I can't speak usually? Probably right? I don't really know.
I've only fully accepted that I have Selective Mutism recently and I've had exams too so i've been really stressed in general and dealing with self-worth so this is my first time having to possibly tell a person that I can't always talk.
But also EVERYONES catching a cold so he might think I have a cold or that i'm judt shy or that I can't speak English well but really I can barely hold a conversation with my twin in public.
Could I get some advice or grounding?