Needing some encouragement
I’m almost 41 and I just did my first ER: 16 eggs, 14 mature, 13 fertilized, 2 blasts, 0 euploid.
I know my next retrieval could yield a euploid but I’m feeling defeated after the last 1.5years…career upheaval/trying to build a whole new career from scratch, miscarriage, etc etc…I’m experiencing depression like I’ve never experienced before. I’m totally safe, but it’s the kind where I can’t bring myself to do anything.at.all. It’s been going on for longer than I’d like to admit. I can hardly leave the house and everything feels so hard even showering is a whole thing/too much effort.
Work and relationship are suffering in big ways. I’m going to get a therapist (even though talk therapy has never done much for me) but I guess I’m more or less looking to feel seen and heard by someone who has been here before and who has come out the other side….Can anyone relate? It just feels so lonely.