I was wondering about something. When I adopted my beloved son, I did it because I had wanted to have exactly one child (I'm the only child of two other only children by the way) but babies have always freaked me out, just the way they look and the sounds they make, unlike with many other women, they never triggered any kind of cuteness reflex inside of me, they just freaked me out.
I developed the attitude that people shouldn't procreate in general only years later.
Does my ongoing motherhood and values still line up with the philosophy of antinatalism if my original choice against procreation was made for different reasons?