u/Civil_Cookie1134

After a eight plus month long mania/mixed episode and 3 months of suicidal depression crash, my brain has been through so much the last year.

I still feel like I’m not really present and living, like I don’t know myself anymore. It’s hard to look at my belongings and old pictures because it feels like memorabilia from a different life. I’m no totally anhedonic, but it’s hard to live after the tumultuous mania and the desire to die during depression. Just ranting, because this is so hard and I wish I could be better all the way.