girlmoder's requiem
will i be forced to girlmode forever? I've been on test for over 15mo and I don't pass 90% of the time. but I look too masculine to "fit in" as a female.
the only thing I do to girlmode is shave. some people seem suprised when I tell them my obviously female name. I have a deep voice but it sounds unmistakably female.
my parents still treat me as a girl because theyre so woke that me telling them i'd been on test for 6 months didn't make it clear enough that i'm a man. there's some people in my spanish class who refer to me with male pronouns but I don't know if it's because I pass or because their spanish is terrible.
I don't have anyone in my life that can give me honest advice. Should I keep living as an extremely butch hormonally challenged female or try to cut it as a animegirlfaced stick thin 14 going on 25 male with a female legal name?