u/Classic-Cherry-5016

Im currently writing this, crying, all alone, with no one to talk to, as high school will end forever in just a couple days. I dont know why it just clicked to me and hit me like a truck that these years of my life are over. I havent accomplished much and i missed out on so many things, i dont have anyone its so miserable i really wish i could connect like other ppl do... I cant believe ive wasted these​ precious developmental years at home, aquirring no new experiences or connections​. Im afraid of most things like talking to people or getting a job or a driver's license. I havent discovered myself and my identity, my place in the world or found a sense of self. I have low self esteem and therefore have no aspirations because I dont believe in myself. I have no hobbies or any kind of life, all ive been doing is abuse any type of escapism. I don't know how to navigate life, I dont know places, how to use public transports in my cities, where to buy clothes. Its feels so hard rn but i know itll get better. All I can do is be hopeful for the future and try my best to grow and change into a better version of myself over the summer and in college. I know this summer's about to be a lonely one...

If humans require social interactions, why can social anxiety disorder even happen...?

Id appreciate some replies in the comments as im feeling quite sad rn and I lack any kind of a support system.