Being bisexual sucks
I’m a 15-year-old guy, and there’s this other guy who’s also 15 that I have English with. He’s on my bus too. We’ve been friends for around two years, but I can’t stop romanticizing him. He’s so freaking hot, and every day on the bus I catch him looking at me over his phone. I can’t help but think he’s into me.
Another thing is, when there aren’t any seats and we have to sit together, we always listen to music with each other in the mornings. Sometimes we even fall asleep on the bus until we get to school. After school, I walk him home. Even on the bus, we’re always fighting each other — not in a rude or actually violent way, but because we both do jujitsu, so we’re always testing each other.
In English, he never fails to talk to me as soon as I walk in. He always tells me to sit next to him, and when I say no and go sit at my assigned seat, he still comes and sits right behind me. Even when the teacher tells him to go back to his seat, he doesn’t. He just stays there until the teacher gives up.
You’re probably thinking, “Oh, he’s totally into you, bro.” Honestly, that’s what I think too. But the problem is that we both have girlfriends. I love my girlfriend. I love talking to her, and she really understands me. But I still can’t stop thinking about this guy and what it would be like to have a boyfriend, because I’ve never had one before.
I’ve been bisexual since first grade, and now I’m in 9th grade. I’ve only been out of the closet since December 7th, 2025, and now it’s May 17th, 2026. He knows I’m bisexual, but even before I came out, things were still the same — the talking, the looks, the music, all of it.
I just can’t stop thinking about him, bro. I like him so much. I need help. What the hell do I do?