guilt shame from hurting someone HELP URGENT!!
(GUYS PLS ANSWER I NEED HELPPP) so ive never spoken about this but i feel so guilty to the point where i dont feel like doing anything and i honestly dont wanna be here anymore. a few years ago i use to listen to subliminals, ive stopped now completely but a couple times i remember listenting to one when i was 13 for a desired friend group to break up. at the time i didnt realise what i was doing but i listened to it and was thinking of a group i think i might have been jealous of, i dont know. i kind of forgot but this is what i remember. i dont think it worked and eveyrthing was fine but i also listened to one for desired people to leave the school. again i dont rlly remmeber who but i think it was these two people who i was jealous of bcz of a tiny thing they did to me in the past but it doesnt matter thats besides the point, they are so pretty and sweet and loved and i dont know why i listened to the sub. im scared i did black magic because it worked and they left the school. i wish they never left and i have felt such bad guilt and shame for two years, im finally leaving the school now which makes me feel a bit better but i just feel so guilty, i hate myself so much. what should i do? and how should i stop living with this guilt. its so bad i hate myself for it, i dont feel like eating or studying i dont deserve to be happy. people think im so sweet but im just a bitch, im scared i did black magic too, but if i knew it was black magic or associated with witchcraft i would never have touched the subs. what do i do!?!?!?! the guilt wont go from 2 years!! 😞😞