Need help
Assalamualaikum. My first time posting here. I had an abortion recently where i lost my little girl. I don’t know how to deal with this. I knew for a fact she was going to be following deen better than me because since i had gotten pregnant with her all i wanted to do was pray and read quran. I know she’s in jannah right now. Maybe i didn’t deserve her that’s why allah took her away from me. I regret the life i used to live- angry and irritated with people around me who cared about me. I feel like this is my punishment, having to lose my baby. I want to become better. I want to become a patient person not easily irritated and not snapping at people like before. I want to correct my mistakes. Whenever i die i want to be in jannah with my daughter. I want to become better. Please help me. How can i control my anger and emotions and become a better person?