Feeling lost
As-Salaam-Alaikum everybody.
I am currently facing some difficulties in life, these difficulties are the consequences of my own actions . I take full accountability for them. I try to be as practical as possible. I prefer being practical. But I’m also very pessimistic. Every time I try for something I laugh at myself believing with conviction that I will fail. I don’t know why that is I’ve never had any good hopes or any optimistic outlooks on situations and again that is all completely my fault. No mental health issues or depression no excuses it is all my fault. The thing is I don’t know how I can wire my brain into being positive. Every time I make dua i always say to my self I don’t deserve it and then I end up convincing myself I don’t deserve it. I’m also quite insecure and have no confidence in myself. I constantly compare myself to others etc. I just wanted to get some advice and practical advice on how I can change that, my self criticism is incredibly stubborn. People can try say positive things about me but I’ll convince myself that I’m not like that. I also underestimate myself quite a lot too.
Just wanted to get some practical advice or steps on how I slowly fix this mentality I have, it’s causing me to be awake all night and affecting my sleep. And please don’t don’t say cliche things I know I need to make dua etc but come one guys is there anything practical I can do anything logical way of thinking. Maybe I’m just being dumb and feel free to correct me.
Jzk ❤️